To all my readers: I know I started to write a story...but the thing is I never finish them.
I just don't have the time or willpower to finish it this time.
So now, here's what I'm gonna do. A daily account of all the things that happens in my life...
Why?
Because that's all I've got to say.
So Day One:
-I hate my life and I have no reason why. I have the best boyfriend in the UNIVERSE, my parents don't make me do chores, my two yr old sister idolizes me, my friends are awesome...I have the best life ever! The only thing I need now is a car and I'm already getting that soon! But for some reason...it all seems too good to be true. I've been having dreams about chewing out my mom and hanging myself or strangling myself in front of her. Recently we got in to a big fight and I don't even remember what is was about. All I know is that I was cornered, pushed her and locked myself in my closet crying my eyes. She'll never know how much I really care about her...she's always so happy, and now she cries all the ime and I'm starting to too. My Grandfather died when I was young and before that he was my best friend. So it was really hard for me when he died. He was also my mom's dad. So it must've been hard on her too. I cry about that mostly but now...everything that goes wrong brings back memories. And even the good things are making me feel so bad. I'm still sad but I've stopped crying. I just wish I could go back and correct all the errors in my life. Especially all the fights with my mom. She deserves before than that...and I hate myself for everything I've done...
Thanks for taking like five minutes out of your day to read this.
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