Hm...where to start so I guess i'll start from the very beginning. See my dad has this fiancee or however the hell you spell it...and it's really hard to get along with her sometimes. i mean in the beginning sure she was nice and treated us as if me and my sister were her own...but now it's like you can hardly tell when her god forsaken mood swings are. I mean sumtimes she'll be all nice and we'll chat like stepmother/daughter's should and then other times she be such a witch and yell at us when all she has to do was calmly explain what went wrong. i mean i understand if i don't do something right when im asked to..but come on yell at me to the point where i feel like a useless child and i end up crying throught the night or to sleep...that's utterly pathetic...i mean ther would be times that i wish i would have died right then and there...and then my dad goes and says i shouldn't mouth off about her because i might hurt her feelings...but then it's like what about my god forbidden feelings?!?I guess i'll just have to learn to adapt and smile and nod and do to the best of my ability to do what i am asked to do.
Then there's the matter of my now ex-boyfriend Alec. I mean don't get me wrong he was a great guy and all..but there were times when i'd ask myself "what the hell did i get myself into"...i mean his mom wasn't very happy about the fact that he was 2.5 years younger than me...so she restricted our dating schedule to the point where i hardly ever saw him and was lucky if i saw him once a month. and then there's the matter of when he'd constantly forget to call me and always make me be be the one to call...hoping he'd step up and take the initiative and instead be the one calling me but no that hardly ever happened...but now 6 months down the road i have sadly decided to call it quits and suprisingly im am kinda glad to be doing this..even tho im the one that started and now oddly im the one that's ending it.
Wow...marching band clinics and the camp was one hell of an experience i'll say! I mean i love feeling needed and the fact that i'll finnaly have something to do with my life other than sitting around and wondering why and the world i exist..but now no more because now i have a marching band and tons of friends..band camp was great altho i noticed that some people quit just because they thought band camp was too much of an overload...i mean come on so we marched for 7 hours a day and played for about 3 or 4...but hey that's marching band life and if you can't cope with that then sianaro suckers!
Oh and i met this guy named Thomas throuugh band clinics and then we went to this marching band designated pol party and i asked him to a band dance and to go out with me and to my utter delighted suprise he said yes..he's a great boyfriend because he's : supportive, a beliver, cute, nice, protective but not over protective and he thinks we might actually last a ver long time and comfortable with "us" being an "item"...hmm i wonder when the word(s) "love" and "I Love You" will come into the picture wink
so wish me luck in marching band, friends, and a new but hopefully fun and enjoybale highschool life ahead of me..well that's it for now tata my friends heart 3nodding
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