wow. i just read an old journal i was writing back in high school. you think im a whiny b***h now? man, i was a loser eight fold. its not that i was a loser. its just that the simplest things brought me down. and whats worse is that now that i look through it, there were people who really cared for me. i had it at work today and my coworkers poked fun about how it was purple and how i would laugh at my memories. i just told them to shut up really cause my life is not one to be made fun of by anyone but me.
i sat there reading about how this girl said this, or how this other girl did that; and i said to myself that if today was like the butterfly affect movie, i would have talked to these people a lot differently then i would today. well maybe not totally everyone but im just saying ive matured and the journal is proof of it. i just wish back then i wasnt so whiny and afraid to talk to girls. i needed girlfriends. and i know of three just in the journal that i could have asked out if i just had enough courage back then. i even wrote that i was too afraid to talk face to face with one of them. even though she read the journal, i think i still had a chance...
oh well, enough of that. four day weekend starting right now.
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