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Nn, time for some poetry.. sweatdrop
<center>Hide and Forget
As far as you know I've never hid As far as you see I've never held back But you've never known, never seen, deep inside For each and every moment I cringe and cry I've gotten used to the pain though, done well to hide it You've never imagined the hurt buried inside me But still I can laugh, still I can smile Still I can brush it off with a wave and a sigh I won't let you see the pain that I hold I'd never want you to share in such a heavy load So I'll just smile and nod, pretend nothing's wrong While just under the surface I wither and die It's no longer the pain that bothers me most I've gotten too used to it to care anymore The only thing that's important, the thing I can still feel Is the deep rooted need to make you happy. Please don't come any closer, don't ask me what's wrong Just stay blissful in your ignorance, just stay naive That way I can disappear with one less regret The load is already too heavy, so allow me this one shred of peace Don't ask me what troubles me, stop caring so much Just be like the rest, forget about me Let me fade into nothing and shed no tears When I'm finally gone you can be free So let no tears fall, and please, for get about me
Revenge
Saying you're sorry won't fix my broken heart You've hurt me too much to be granted forgiveness You deserve all this pain and remorse that I left you It's my revenge I'll never forget the look on your face as I died in your arms You deserve every bit of this guilt It's my revenge Don't bother crying, it'll do you no good I've dug a hole through your heart and it'll never heal Your search for happiness will never be fulfilled You'll suffer like I did It's my revenge When the time finally comes I'll drive you insane Lead you to suicide and laugh at your pain I'll be here till the end, I'll never let go Not until I see your dead tortured body and soul It's my revenge I deserve this much After all that I went through it's the least you can do So shut up, don't pray, and don't beg God is deaf to your cries; I've made sure of that No one will help you, nobody cares You'll get a taste of what my life was like I can't rest till you're gone It's my revenge But I bet you've planned it all like always right? I bet you're laughing inside that I fell for it again And you're probably just waiting to see the look on my face as you die in my arms Whose revenge is it now? I can't tell anymore, and it breaks me apart You sick twisted b*****d... you planned this all from the start
The End
An endless phase A shattered craze The broken pieces of a dream A muttered curse A forming verse The quiet drip of blood These shaking hands That shaky breath A life that's not worth living An endless phase A shattered craze The stinging pain of metal My fading form Cold, pale, and still A broken smile still lingers I'm happy on my dying day Though tears keep falling freely A burning wound An ending pain My heart had died before me A sweet release No need to please A long awaited freedom
Mirror Image Lover
You're crying again, but not like before This time you're tears are worth so much more I feel no regret, no remorse, and no sorrow I know you'll forget all this by tomorrow
But for this one moment I can say That you were wrong not to see it my way If only you'd listened, you'd not be shedding these tears If only you'd listened, you wouldn't be living your darkest fears But I feel no regret, no remorse, and no sorrow For I know well enough you'll forget me by tomorrow
It's okay, I don't mind, I've already had my chance But I blew it all, losing my mind in this freakish trance I'll feel no regret, no remorse, and no sorrow Just please forget about this by tomorrow
That way I can turn away and feel no guilt And lock myself away behind this high wall that I've built I can say that you wronged me, and gave me these scars That you hurt me deeply and locked me behind these bars If you let me believe that it's you who's to blame I'll be free to continue playing my game I can keep being naive, and pretend to be pure I can play the lead role and for all my sins find a cure I can say that I feel nothing, no regret, no remorse, and no sorrow Because you, being so horrid, have already forgotten, though it's not even tomorrow
Maybe I can trick myself longer, keep pretending it's the truth And keep on living this lie without asking for proof My imaginary lover, who hurt me so much Please keep my secret, but don't keep in touch I have no more need for you, except as that someone to take all the blame Because I'm too scared to take the claim I'll feel no regret, no remorse, and no sorrow As long as I don't look into a mirror and see you before tomorrow
Rain
Cold in the rain, I stand once again Surrounded by people, but alone in my pain Invisible tears keep falling down my cheeks But no one ever sees, never knows, never cares These wounds that I'll never let heal keep on burning The cold rain brings them out, cutting into my skin Oh well, too bad, I'll just push it within Add the pain to my growing collection Keep it close to my heart, and don't let anyone see Unless they cared enough to plea with me Again I'm caught in the freezing cold rain Alone again, inside and out The harsh wind whips at my skin Cold drops adding to the abuse Oh well, too bad, time to bring out the noose I stand starring into nothing, the ready rope waiting A chair under my feet as I look out for any hope Anyone there? No, of course not, why would they come? With a chilling breath and look over these scars Freshly cut wounds dripping with blood Again in the rain, cold and alone Surrounded by people that will never know I know they can see me, but they don't do a thing Idly chatting as they watch me get ready to hang I would try to scream, but I know they won't hear So I'll just make one last wound and end this suffering I'm tired of the rain, it's making me numb No amount of clothing can ever block it I'm tired of this rain, it's making me sick Oh well, too bad, I can hear my time slowly end it's once steady tick So I'll make one more wound too add to my collection Loop the rope round my neck and kick away my chair Let them watch as I die, not bothering to care Lock myself away with my pain And slowly drown in all this damn rain</center>
Akino Kuraki · Tue Jan 04, 2005 @ 12:53pm · 2 Comments |
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