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Well, after much struggle and strife, my relationship with Tony ended. No, not entirely, we're still brother and sister, but he moved on and found someone better. Good for him.

Of course, "good for you", "good for them", and "good for him/her" are usually what I say when I'm envious of something of the given person. I say it with all sincerety; I am truly am happy for that person's good fortune, but that envy is still there. So what am I envious of?

I'm envious that Tony is more appealing to the general public than I am, and that a it seems he gets any girl he wants. Why is that? There's no real reason for it, is there?

I don't know what to believe. I'm pretty much not interested in online dating now; it's too easy for the other person to fall out of commitment with me and break my heart. Thank you Tony for that all-valuable lesson: Long-distance relationships are too hard for a 14/15-year-old boy to handle.

I don't think I'll be falling for the whole making-promises-at-the-beginning-of-the-relationship thing again, either. Yeah, it's real easy for a guy to say all these nice things that make a girl happy, but all of a sudden he doesn't really think those promises are convienient, and breaks them. Why do you think they made her happy in the first place?

BECAUSE SHE FRIGGEN BELIEVED HIM! And that makes it ten times harder for her when he breaks the promise, because she put her heart into something that wasn't really there. I could say, "Girls beware, don't let guys make promises" or something, but that's something a a girl has to learn hands-on, unfortunately.

Tony, if you're reading this, it's not necessarilly aimed at you. Good luck with Katy, I hope you guys are happy, because I'm not. Tony, I hope you don't make the same mistakes with Katy that you made with me.

I do have my eye on a certain guy, but my chances of getting him to fall for me are slim to nothing. I would know, I've tried years and years before. I've known him since Kindergaten, and have been friends with him since the 2nd grade, and have asked him how he liked me... it's always "as a friend".

That's usually how it is with guys for me, Tony was just a fluke. The Masters of the Universe must have realized the mistake and crashed the relationship. Well, at least they're doing their jobs.

Well, all is well with the universe again. May you go in peace, and may your dreams and hopes come true. That's all we truly have in this world; hope.

~Katie