well heya agen! i so shud ave been on here more! i ave a lot 2 put down! where do i start!
that guy i was madly in love wit! well he decided that he preferred his ex gf n has gone back 2 her! rolleyes im ok with it now! they deserve each other! n ppl were rite i did deserve better! y the hell did i ave 2 go down hill tho?i went from him, who i actually for loved me 2 a 41 yes 41 yr old man who once agen i fort loved me! scream that f**kin tw*t! he was wit my sister at the time n still is! then we get Shaun! heart only one way i cud ave described him 2 u! he was the love of my life! heart or at least i fort he was! confused he had everything! a lovely family, a convertable bmw, a music studio and a brilliant singin voice! n he also made me feel good! all i cud ever hope 4! plus he had just c** out of a relationship so was really vulnerable! wink so there is was, lookin after him! twisted hehe! but he told me that he didn't want a relationship with me cos i would just b a rebound gf n he wanted me 2 b more then that! we slept 2getha but only wen we was at mine! i even went on holiday with him! on r own! 5hrs from ne1 i knew! durin this time i had been doin my GCSEs (oo big n scary exams), so iw as stressed cos of that, plus my mum (who i cant stand now) decided 2 leave my dad! she didn't care that she had done it while i was doin my exams or nefing! Shaun helped me thro this or at least i fort he was gonna! but he didn't! he was there 4 me if i foned him, or if i txt him! he was worried bout me once or twice n travvelled 1hr in the car 2 c if i was alrite! then he went n spent a week with this girl in halifax! which is also bout 5hrs in the opposite direction from us! wahmbulance that is wen i realised that i was no longer gonna b his babe, his girl! she was! he came back n we went on holiday! i paid 4 everything! n i mean everything! i even paid 4 nxt yrs deposit which was 2 take her n her 4 kids on holiday wit him! he paid 4 it wit my money! then we came back! he spent over a week at hers! nearly 2 and a half weeks infact ! i was so upset! then he spent 1 weekend with me n we did the normal, me suck, him play, shag n sleep! he really didn't want 2 b here! that was the last time i saw him! he emailed me and told me that i was an attention seeker n he wants me 2 go back 2 the sarah he knew and loved! apparantly i ave grown up 2 much! excuse me mister but who has had 2 deal wit their parents breakin up, their dad takin an overdose, them callin the ambulance, gcse's n being in unrequited love! well duh! corse i am gonna grow up! scream scream
but then we c** 2 paul, liam, david, mathew, davey, alex, faz!! what do i do! i ave met all of these off of a chat site called www.ukchat.com n they all really like me! i am scared cos as b4 i am still really uncomfortable with my physical appearance! i met shaun on the net n we turned out ok wen we met, shame he was a tw*t off the net hehe! but i really like paul n liam! paul is a colchester guy n he is the closest but i ave seen a pic of himn he is .....corr buff..... eek eek n then there is liam who is a manchester guy who cares so much 4 me! ive been speakin 2 him 4 a long time n he is so sweet! i really miss both these people wen i dnt speak to them!
paul - love him 2 bits n he lives closer
liam - always says the rite thing n nos how 2 make me laugh or at least smile
david - well he is 22 2day n wants 2 move in with me!
mathew is italian n is cumin 2 england 4 6 months nxt yr mayb longer
davey - cumin 2 c me soon
alex - wants 2 c** n live with me here n wrk wit my cousin on his gardenin thing
faz - not spoke to in a while! think i blocked him hehe!
there is also a guy called kev who i kinda met thro a friend, who where i was wrkin wen i met that boy, happened 2 friends with this guy! he is really sweet! got a cute beer belly, but im not skinny so i dnt care! so yeh! what or who wud u go 4?
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