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Loss So much has happened this weekend that I can't even begin to think. This weekend, my best friend of 13 years commited suicide. I found out from a police officer, he told me he swallowed ten sleeping pills. I don't know what to say, what to feel. It's just a bland feeling. On top of that, I'm HIV+. It's in an early stage, so it's treatable, but I have no idea whether its curable now. I'm almost scared. This means that I can't pursue a relationship with the girl that I'm starting to really love. It's painful to feel this way. That girl, not only is dealing with my insignificant pain, but also has to deal with her own losses. It makes me sick that I added to her load of problems. Sometimes...I wish I could die.

Posted by: Szczur Mon Oct 02, 2006 @ 06:39pm

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Commented on: Mon Oct 02, 2006 @ 06:52pm


	hugs I love you Aleksy...and we'll make it through this...somehow. We'll find a way...I don't know what it is yet...but we will.

Commented on: Mon Oct 02, 2006 @ 09:37pm

-Pestilence Rain-
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Commented on: Tue Oct 03, 2006 @ 02:01am


	The beauty remains, the pain passes.

Commented on: Tue Oct 03, 2006 @ 03:05am


	dude that suck mager balls....and for shame you should know to watch out the AIDs whee

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Commented on: Tue Nov 22, 2011 @ 06:30pm


	Nt like you'll ever see this or anything...but you were too good for me. And I was too young,stupid and naive for someone like you. I miss you, and as dumb as I am, I still somehow love you. I have no idea why, I shouldn't have even known what love WAS back then, but I do. I hope you're happy and healthy and safe back home. I wish I could talk to you again, and I wish I hadn't clung so hard.

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