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This would be my first Journal entry, so I'm starting slow with a overview of "Me." First off, my name is Blaze Alexander Pinkston and I'm currently a senior of Ridgeland High School, GA. Other name is 'Tigger' because I tend to doing alot of 'Bouncing' XD, that one was given to me. I'm not particularly a happy person, everyone sees me and thinks I'm always...joyed. I put on an act, because I don't want people whom I care about to worry. I'm not suicidal and I've never thought of it, people just never want to know who I am...or what I am, I should say because I dont really know who I am. Noone has ever thought, cared, or even loved me to my knowledge and I'm very shy when meeting new people, but soon throw in my "circus act" and just continue shrouding my life. I'm very intellectual and tend to overthink things then I run ideas through my head just wishing one was true, but it will never be true. Love, Hope, Breath is just an empty pool, we take time, get ready and dressed, and then we wait our whole lives to jump into only to know its all shallow. This Journal is to finally express my full emotions how I see it and to break this barrier, the fact that people I won't know will be reading this, I have no reason to pretend as my normal life.