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Yeah, what does it all ******** matter any way. Things are this way and that is that way, and you just get to the point where you just ******** don't care anymore. You just feel like you running a tredmill...you keep on going and going and nothing changes. You work your a** off day in and day out. All you want is someone to say thankyou here and there, and you cant even get that. You help people with all there damn problems, and the moment there problems seem to alleviate there gone. Oh, but not forever, they come back when they have another problem. Because, your there emotional whore, and they only need you when they need you. WHen you need them, they dont have a thing to do with you. You get ******** tired of it all because you dont have anyone to help you, because all your friends, they dont care. THey are to busy wallowing in their self pity to help you once in a blue moon. What tops that is, hell, you have their problems to worry about too. This is why psychs kill themselves. They can't tell anyone. ********, I cant tell anyone and I don't get payed. Being a one way friend, ******** sucks, Im tired of it.

You try to think there is good in people. Try to do it all the time. THe person does something horrible and you think, "well everyone messes up here and there" its all good. BUt no, these people that you think have some good in them...the first thing they can do is do something stupid towards you. sad something completely stupid that makes you lose all hope for everything.

What hurts more than anything though, is telling a girl you may love, that she can always work things out with her boyfriend. Even though you want to tell them, "no".

Then there are those ungrateful people that you do everything for, and all they can do is stab you in the back as many times as they can.

Just ******** everyone, Im tired of it all.