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why... why the agrivation and depression i woke up once again too a dreadfull morning... that day my mom was aruging with her boy friend.. rolls eyes hes a ****** a hole. Excuse my french >.< but still hes giving my mom grief and me and he acts as if he now owns the house i telling you its majorly pissing me off. Without depression not being an attention seeker or anything but this house is so depressing . Evry new morning i wake up too angry cries and ****** rainy days it so annoying and my mother is still going throught a grieving process over tyne god rest her soul . Sometimes i just wish my step dad was here he could always give me advice or help . but now hes gone as **** brain tumar stare well i have no one too turn too its bloody hard growing up on your own without a father and now being an only child just gets majorly agrivating . god id tap my head for hours on end wondering why . What have i done in my previouse life too deserve this. Evryone goes throught it i guess but why now why at this age do i have too lose so much and live the rest of my life with these memories its just not healthy . i mean i could be happy as ever for like 10 minutes then turn into a complete and utter **** a hole the next .Sometimes violent... ive gotta stop eating so much suger O.o or drinking . Yea dats probably it sweatdrop . I think evry kid goes throught a stage like this sometimes even further.. Some kids take there own lifes over little things . still trying too figure out why my own sister took her life. Ive tried for year now too get rid of these memories but evrytime something just clicks and triggers off my brain and it gets me in a rage , depressive state . But evryone goes throught it its a part of life... Evry new born child is all ready dying we just have too live with it i guess... please leave comments theyd be appricated..

Posted by: Urban Sprit Sun Jan 23, 2005 @ 12:02am

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Commented on: Sun Jan 23, 2005 @ 12:05pm


	I know what u mean babes sweatdrop rainny days are depressin, and I hate it when someone close to u is cryin and u feel useless coz u can't help sad my computer still not workin and that pisses me off even more I just hope I'm not in a bad mood when I see ya sweatdrop coz believe me when I'm in a bad mood Phoenix is too and u don't wanna see her like that she even beaten up her own bf sweatdrop well hope ur feelin better soon luv ya loads Mal XxXxXxX heart heart heart XxXxXxX

Commented on: Fri Jan 28, 2005 @ 12:29pm


	hiya andy you know me well and i found it quite hard to read your journal it was very upsetting why dont you ever talk about it to your freinds why bottle it all up inside one day it will all hit home and you will not know how to handle crying you should talk to someone i will always be there for you. heart

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Commented on: Wed Feb 02, 2005 @ 06:31pm


	Hiya Andy hey dont suffer in silence eva u feel like dis c n talk 2 me i'll b dere 4 u smile** xxx n alwayz memba u can turn 2 me for help wen ur stuck im only a call away, ne thin i can do 4 u 2 b happy just ask xxx

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