i don't want to sound emo or anything but today i'm so pist off cause my mom was calling me in the morning and i hadn't answered so i called her in the afternoon and she doesn't answer so i'm like whatever and then i place my phone in my backpack and forget about it then i have 2 missed calls from her and i got home and she was bitching about it like for a while she was all up on my face i could stand that but what i can't stand is when she embraces my step dad and places him higher than me and supposedly he's all perfect and i'm not so i was just quiet the whole time but when i went to my room the only thing in my head was if supposedly it was a mistake for her having kids at an early age, so i guess with that she calls me a mistake well if i'm her ******** mistake then maybe she should just erase me from her life and raise the perfect child she always wanted because obviously i don't fit her description of perfect and i hate the way when she puts me down and she expects me to be running to her with open arms and a smile but in reality what i do is walk away with my arms crossed. I really don't know how my little brother Nathan (still not born yet) is gonna turn out because she can't handle a girl then how the hell is she gonna handle a boy? all i know is once i graduate h.s. i am leaving her and going somewhere else...most likely to college. idk what to do but i know i'm not the girl who she used to say to do things and would do it. I do what i want to now and i know that's what pisses her off the most. right now the only song that describes how i feel is Numb by Linkin Park well that's all i gotta say. luv u guys heart
PhantomPuck · Sat Dec 09, 2006 @ 01:40am · 1 Comments |