Hey guys.....here comes my speech of depression...sigh* (you're gonna end up reading it someday anyways...)
Okay, I've been noticing how people are avoiding me....cough* cough** old friends and such....Okay....I know the many different dumb a** reasons. First of all people think I'm "scary" now that I'm usually seen dressed in all black, slumping around in my Commi hat (DONT diss the commi hat ) Anyways, another reason is that they think I've changed too much and they're afraid of what I'm becomming. WELL if those lazy a** people would just maybe sit down and talk to me or bother to call, maybe they'd find out that I'm the same dum 8th grader that throws items at random people and watch weirdo TV shows...I'm still sara....I wish you would all understand.....
I am so lonely now, I go home everyday wishing that people would accept me, wishing that one day someone will just bother to pick up the phone and call me....just to talk. I know that some people have sports and homework and all that, but is there no time to call me? I'm not asking for an hour...I'm asking for 2 minutes. Thats all I want. I want to know that people still care for me, even though I'm not the most awesome dresser in the world. AND DONT SAY its because of ur damn class arangement or something stupid like that. I know what its really about....
People ask me why I hurt myself.....I only cut because I feel alone....I cut when I am alone.....I cut when I feel like I'm just a load of crap waiting for the lights to go out.....I cut when I've been yelled at or used.....I cut whenenver I have the minute to feel depressed. This isnt a cry for help, I'm not dying....this is a cry for my friends and they know who they are.
If you know that you're one of the people that are rejecting me or hiding from me, you're not doing what u should be hunny. I'm not gonna get all hissy fit and start telling u off because I realize i've made some mistakes along the way and I'm doing everything I can to fix them....but if you're not gonna make an effort....then screw you, you hypocrit. (I hope i spelled that right )
Much love heart
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