For most of my life I swore I'd never settle down with anyone... I might find someone I wanted to spend the rest of my life with but I'd never marry them. I'd simply be with them.
Over the summer I met someone who beat all of those theories and broke through the barriors I had set. He asked me to marry him and I said I would, and I was confident that we would be together for good, for once. That came as quite a surprise.
I had to leave the state he lives in (I was living there over the summer as well) because I had to return to school. Everything was great for a while, until the stress of long distance got to us. We did, however, manage to arange things so that we could visit eachother about once a month. Regardless, we still had struggles whenever we wern't together, which could normally be resolved by recognizeing that if we were together, these things wouldn't be an issue.
We had a lot of struggles, we had times with neither of us was sure of our future, but we always moved on and things always mended themselves over time. We always returned to remembering that we would be together forever and that all was well whenever we were together.
A couple of days ago, he told me he wanted to take a long break. Long as in a couple of years so he can finish college. This worries me a lot and I've got this nagging feeling that we won't make it. I realize that if we don't make it, maybe we're better off apart, but it still hurts a lot to think that this person who got past all of my security is pushing me away.
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