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Okay, so I have one question, why are people like me always the ones getting hurt? Is it because we are too open to people? I don't know what it is, but for some reason we always seem to get the s**t end of the stick. Especially when it comes to relationships...

I for one am a person with a mind of her own. I used to believe that love was more than just a four letter word, I believed that it was a feeling, an emotion that one person expresses to another when they are very emotionally, and physically attracted to them, when they feel a tug on their heart everytime they are around the other. Well these past few months have been torment for me. I have been to heaven, then had a straight trip to hell. A huge emotional rollercoaster ride that so far..hasn't ended.

Hate. Yet another four letter word that to me, is more than just a word, it is also a feeling. The one thing on this earth that I hate..are people that use L-O-V-E as just a word..not a feeling. I for one, have never said 'I love you' to anyone, and not had the feelings to back it up. But I have heard it from people that I know never meant it, and believe me..it hurts.

Most people will probably think "She isn't the only one that this has happend to" or "She should just suck it up and move on" But I know that many of you have gone through the same pain that I am feeling, or maybe even worse. Like just about every relationship that I have been in, has ended terribly, I usually get tossed out like last weeks trash. I have been used, cheated on, and pulled along like a puppy on a leash.

I was promised by someone that they wouldn't break up with me for absolutely anything..well they lied. I was told that and I quote, "You are mine, and I am yours. No one elses." But you see that was a lie to, because the whole time..they were still dating someone else..so in my veiw, the whole relationship was a lie. To me, if you are truely in love with someone, you should be able to tell them ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING, no matter what the situation may be. I also believe that if you are truely in love with someone then you should be with them. Some people may not agree with that, but it is one thing that I strongly believe.

I am also a person that hates life..but I love to live. Because I never know what is going to happen. Without faith, trust, and loyalty there can be no love. Only lies and deception.

So I have one thing to say. ******** the World.