Now I'm even more... I dunno. There was what I posted last night that was a serious realization for me... becuase in the original post of it I had mentioned how I was starting to wonder if Zan was even a person I want to be friends with anymore because she just is turning into a different person and our veiws are clashing. Then tonight she sent me an IM to a news artical. I read it right off becuase I did know I had been neglecting her lately, and I also had nothing better to do. I read it and told her I did. She started laughing thinking it was hilarious. I didn't realize she was sending it as something funny, becuase I read it and found it very serious. It was an article about a man in his older 20's pretending to be a 12 year old and trying to enroll in school and sex offenders and such. I just didn't find it funny. I said to each their own, and how everyone has their own sense of humor. I understand how some people would find it funny. She seemed to definately not like that I saw it more serious than funny though. She kinda made me feel like since I didn't find it funny I destroyed her mood and am a bad person and like I said her laughing is wrong when all I said was I didn't find it funny like she did... So I guess she took it offensively? Our veiws really are clashing. Not like I'm holding onto any friends at school anyways, not much. I'm connected to no one directly anymore to talk with and have fun with. And I don't want that to all be put into one person who has their own life where I only really want to be part of it when he's home, so it seems. So I honestly don't know what to do right now. I don't feel like friend searching becuase that's just never what I did. They come to me. Friendships are just really sketchy right now, in real life.
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