ever since my bday my family has treated me like dirt .... and i dont like it .... im standing infront of them and they are talking bad about me to someone else and its like they think im not there or im not listening .... - sigh - i guess even pretending to be a goody-tooshoos isnt gonna get me out of this ..... damn i had a good rep too .... all my life i've lost what i cared about .... and now i guess im losing my respect .... although i barely even had any before my bday .... so .... im gonna start acting like the girl i know i am razz and im seriously gonna act, dress, and look different .... if my camera starts working i will post some pics of my new look ..... and im gonna include my electric guitar and if any of you ask no i dont know how to play it .... i havn't had time to watch the videos to teach me how .... and i dont have a teacher cuz they never showed up for a whole year .... well now i have a band and none of us except for Mary who plays flute knows how to play our instruments ... LeeAnn has drums , Chyrstin has acoustic guitar and back up singer , Mary of course has flute , and i have electric guitar .... and the band's name is Scratch Out ... and i left my sister out of the band -.- and we have the lyrics made up and stuff ... they need to be longer though lol and so far i've been the only one singing them ... and usually its been in whisper cuz i dont like my parents to hear me sing ... so they aint invited to the talent contest .... which Scratch Out is going to preform .... so next time we are all at my house or anywhere else together then we will practice .... oh and by the way .... i've hated my family ever since i found out i was adopted .... but no one told me anything about my real parents or anything .... and i have been trying to run away ever since i was 3 .... and beleive it or not i almost got run over for that one when i was three ... but when i was two i beat people up for a reason .... a dude shot himself infront of me .... it was scary ..... that is why i thought it was my fault for death and all that s**t for a few years and then i promised myself not to make any frineds or anything and i broke that promise .... but now most of my friends dont trust me or dont like me or anything .... and i have scars and almost always come home with scratches or bruises or something ....
bad girl 15 Community Member 
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