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finally
well it finally happened. he said that he wanted to be with me. i agreed but i'm already making the same mistakes that i made the first time. i don't do it on purpose, it just happens in the moments were i'm not thinking things through and then by the time i realize what i've done it's too late. i want to be a good girlfriend but i do little things that annoy him. i'm just so scared of losing him again that i guess i go overboard without meaning to and then he gets angry at me. i say that i'm sorry but that just seems to make things worse. it's like i'm walking on a tightrope 100 feet in the air and if i lean too far in one direction i'll fall. if i try and make myself happy i end up making him angry. if i try and make him happy i end up hurting myself. i wish that i could find a middle ground of sorts but for some reason i get the feeling that i don't have enough time to do that, that i have to find it now before it's too late. and it doesn't help at all that i'm the only one trying in the first place. a relationship is not supposed to be one-sided. you both are supposed to work at it together, not one do all the work while the other pretends that he doesn't give a s**t about you or making things work out between the two of you. at times it even makes me wonder if it's all worth it but then i talk to him and even though he acts like i'm the root of all his problems it still makes me happy to talk to him. i guess that being in love is a very hard and painful thing to go through when it seems that it's mostly on your end
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Community Member
dont do everything to only please him when it hurts u, that, in the end will solve nothing.
time heals all wounds