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To whom it may concern,
I've been going through a lot lately. Nervous breakdowns, household tension, more stress than I've ever been under in my entire life, etc. It's not easy, but I've been working on it. In the past few weeks, I've identified a few of the things that have caused me difficulty.
Sadly, Gaia is one of them.
I'm not saying that overall Gaia is a bad thing. On the contrary, I've made many good friends through it, and I'm sure everyone else has as well. But at this point in my life it has become a distraction, as well as a constant source of disappointment for me. I'm sure there are many of you who have seen the change in my personality over the course of the year. I realize that my journal entries went with the seasons. I started strong one year ago, in the beginning of spring, really peaked in the summer, coasted through the fall, adn then died in the winter.
I've become a total jerk to many of my closest friends, and a few relationships that I once had that were important to me have fallen by the wayside. I would give up going out with my friends, and instead stay home simply because there was a possibility of talking to someone. I craved the attention of people who wouldn't give it, and rejected that of those who would. I'm embarassed by that fact.
For the past six months, Gaia enveloped my life more than any video game could. There would be occasions in which I would sit refreshing my friends page, waiting for someone to get on, being let down when no one did. It wasn't healthy. I just can't do this anymore.
I won't go into it further, but I just want to say goodbye. I probably won't be gone for good. If I find it necessary, I will get on, that'll be once in a blue moon.
For those of you who, for whatever crazy reason, actually need me, you know how to get me.
See you around.
-Caolan
BoondockSaint16 · Sun Mar 04, 2007 @ 02:43pm · 1 Comments |
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