Why must life insist on ******** me up the a** everytime I start to feel good. It ******** pisses me off so much that Im starting to break apart at the seams. I hate it, I hate things so much right. Im tired, Im frustrated, Im bored with everything, I want to be something Im not...I want to be what I want to be. But I know that will never happen because dreams do not come true for me. Now, what is it thats got me so arked up lately? Oh, just EVERYTHING. Im sick of getting used by people...Am I just so boring that when I introduce friends of mine to others, my friends seem to like the others more? It always happens, I dont know WHY! Am I so ******** dull? Unentertaining? Unattractive? boring? What is it about me that people get bored with? I feel used so much now...I feel tired of everything...Im bored with life. Dont get me wrong, I love my friends dearly...
There are so many things I want to do...so many people I want to walk up to and say hi to but I cant...because Im not good enough or Im not attractive enough or I dont look the part or I dont have the money to go out and do all these things...I dont have the money for the clothes or the music or the new styles and s**t. I know this sounds odd coming from me, someone who usually doesnt give a s**t about what people think about her. I dont give a s**t. but I do give a s**t about what I think of myself...
Im probably not making any sense...so lets see if I can sum it up... Im bored of being me. Im bored with the life I have. And Im bored with being screwed over by life!
merph...I need...stimulation...something new or a place where I feel I fit in...
night.
L p U i N e A · Wed Mar 14, 2007 @ 04:17pm · 1 Comments |