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Happiness? A week ago I asked myself a question: Does love really exist, or is it all just some illusion, some hoax that has engulfed and utterly consumed several people including myself? Two weeks ago, I was utterly depressed. I was better for a while and then it was a pitfall emotionally. I broke down and began crying on several occaisions. But this week, all is different. I can stop being depressed, and just do my best. I know that, even if my friends aren't with me, even if love and friendship is all a lie, I could work hard, and try my best at all that I do, and maybe this lie will become a truth. Maybe... But... I know it's not a lie. I know that I love all, and hate none. I know that there is someone out there who loves me, who believes in me. I know that my friends are behind me, and shall be behind me as long as I am behind them. I can no longer isolate myself, if I am to survive in this program. I need to get help if I'm struggling, or give help when I'm not. IB is not a program. It's a family. The friendships you make there are better than those you'd make otherwise. On Gaia, things are Ideal for me as well. I have friends who care about me and who I care about dearly as well. I will fight and continue to fight the desire to quit. I will work my tail off. Just, please, support me. All of you, I need my support if I am to succeed.... If you are supporting me in my trying my hardest, in me staying in this program, post below.

Posted by: Spence Wind Wed Mar 16, 2005 @ 05:10am

Lol. When I am bored, I shall return. Because all you noobs are a plague. And someone must exterminate them.

Comment on my sig and you DIE.

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Commented on: Wed Mar 16, 2005 @ 06:04am


	smile... One big family, huh... That sounds nice. Very nice. Let's try to make it a non-dysfunctional one, eh? Support each other, lend help where it's need, share the love and the pain--and the homework... Yes, let's. I support you, Jordan. We all need to try our hardest. It wouldn't do to lose a family member...

Commented on: Thu Mar 17, 2005 @ 01:51am


	I offer support. I wish I could do everything that was needed.

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Commented on: Thu Mar 17, 2005 @ 02:21am


	Thanks Courtney! Thanks Jackson!

Commented on: Thu Mar 17, 2005 @ 07:27am


	Lookie Lookie! I live.... Anyways.... That's the deal I make with all of my friends. But here we go J-man.... It's like this. I'm here for you, you're here for me. Deal? Deal. And squared... Bwhaha sorry I'm in a REALLY weird mood, I've been reading history for 2 hours.... yay! But it will all work out, we are ALL here for each other.... Force Out, Jedi

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Commented on: Fri Mar 18, 2005 @ 12:32am

Commented on: Sat Mar 19, 2005 @ 03:11am


	geting out of depresion can be quit tuff & it's steep hill. though you may fall down a lot, as long as you keep trying or eventaly find the will to pick yourself back up you haven't lost. I know things must be tuff, but don't you dear give up. I learned the hard way that giveing up gets you no were. though just think of it this way though things may not be the best right now there is always tomarrow. & things are what we make them. so what you make that day out to be, what you do with it. though it is ok to not be all right at times. take a breather, let it all out, but try not to wallow in it. just take things day by day & don't give up! I'm sure everything will im[prove in time.

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Commented on: Sat Mar 19, 2005 @ 03:55am


	Nice Picture Jman... wink wink Hahaha lmao... gotta love Avatars.... ehehe... that's great. Force Out, Jedi

Commented on: Mon Mar 21, 2005 @ 03:28am


	Hehehe you live in a world full of wonderful lies ^_^ I hope your lies become your very truth one day huggles ya I'm here if you ever need me.

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Commented on: Sun Mar 27, 2005 @ 09:19pm


	Thank you, all of you! I can do this! I will do this! Thank god I have friends like you!

Commented on: Fri Apr 01, 2005 @ 08:03pm


	Love you... but. By Me. I still love you that's who I am I still love you with all I am I still love you, so why'd you have to throw me away? (x2) I still love you I still want you I still need you But it can't go back to the way it was before oh no... Love. All I felt was love. Sweet caring love. But that's gone tonight. Love. All I need is love. I just want your love. But you had to choose him over me. I still love you that's who I am I still love you with all I am I still love you, so why'd you have to throw me away? (x2) You. You had to make your choice. But why'd you choose him over me? And cause the pain that I'm feeling now. Love. I just want your love. Your sweet, caring love. but it can't go back to the way it was. No! No! No! Oh No, No! I still love you that's who I am I still love you with all I am I still love you, so why'd you have to throw me away? (x2)

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