Okay, yesterday I was outside playing basketball with my friend Alex and she threw the ball at me and of course I was staring at my hot neighbor who was TRYING to put on his sweetshirt. And kyle(my neighbor) be ing kyle, he didn't have a shirt on underneath it. So I was staring at Kyle and alex threw the ball at me, of course it hit me in the head. So now Kyle is staring at me like I'm crazy and Alex is laughing her head off, on a count of I screamed really loud.
Last summer and the summer before, I was completely and totally obsessed with Kyle and I hadn't even been more than 10 feet of him in 2 years. We used to play together when we were like 8 and stuff and I remember going over to his house to ask if he could come over and his mom answer and said he couldn't cuz he had the flu. I didn't care, I spent that whole day at Kyle's house snuggled up under a blanket with Kyle watching the Land Before Time series. and you know what? I think that's the last time I talked to him other than online.
So back to the liking him a couple of summers ago. 2 summers ago I left alot of notes. It started out with my friend Val asking him if he liked me while i was in the back yard. Then she gave him a note asking him when his birthday was. Then it was are you annoyed with me? and of course he said yes. to Val that is. But then that summer I couldn't get my courage up enough to talk to him face to face, I mean I wanted him to come to me, but I never gave him a chance to. So I left notes with big white flowers attachted to them. *twitches* I am so stupid. and then last year me Val and Kara were over and Val wanted to show him her "Tree Dance". Don't ask. and his friend was over and me and Kara went up to his door, his friend answered and we were like" Um. our friend wanted to show you her um..Tree Dance?" and his friend said. "Oh YippeSkipee." We kinda just walked away with smirks on our faces because we didn't know guy that were a year older than us could be so stupid.
Anyways, so yesterday I saw him outside with his buddy for the first time this year and, God kill me now, I felt the same. I mean I'm not going to leave him notes, I'm actually going to try and talk to him. I think I can do it this year, cuz I think I've gotten much prettier and slimmed down ALOT. I just want him so bad. crying I mean This is the only crush that I've had that's lasted this long. and I don't really even know him anymore.
Do you guys have some,or any, idea or advice that could halp me with this?
Black_N_Blue1292 · Fri Mar 25, 2005 @ 07:36pm · 3 Comments |