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I worry he's not coming back. I mean... I hate this war. And I really care about him. We're so so close. But he's just following his dream. He's been gone... what? Since forever ago. I heard from him in October. And that was the last time. I miss my rotc nazi. Majorly. We broke the rotc/band barrier ((ha)) and spent all year together. And now it's been almost a year. Arg. I'm sounding whiny and pathetic I'm sure. But he really is the awesomest. He was always there for me.

But I'm so SO super-proud of my rotc boy. He's following his dream and serving his country like he talked about forever. He's doing something with his life. And... *sighs deeply* I'm so super-proud that he didn't let me hold him back from that. He said that I might and that killed me. So, yea... we broke up when he left. But he kissed me goodbye and told me I was always his girl, and he couldn't wait to see me when he got home, and we'd go from there. I don't want to be with him when he comes back, ((is that bad?)) I'll love him forever but I'll be in college then, and he'll just be coming home here.

To my rotc boy, aNf
Christopher M