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I'M SO EXCITED!! I GOT MY BELLY BUTTON PEIRCED! WEE!! It's soo pretty too. smile

By the way people FISHING ROCKS!! The way they've created it is awesome. The whole things a lot of fun but besides Bass'ken lake I can't figure out how to catch fish in the other places...there just to hard to catch its quite frusterating. Anyone figured out any tricks?? Cause if you have plz let me know it would be helpful. smile

I think personal guilt over something is the worst thing. Especially when your a depressed person. Considering the fact that I'm kicking myself cause of what I didn't do about a person is something I hate doing and I am doing now. I can't figure out why I keep loosing this battle and I'm not even trying to be in it! The guys seem to be interested and then nope, sorry I was just sorta leading you on and didn't mean to. GAH!! All I want is someone to hang out with and be there but noooo it gets all screwed up when hormones come into play. God I could just kick myself in my own a** for being this stupid. I hate men!!

I have no clue on what to do now. I'm confused and not sure what I should do. I like him but does he like me. Oh I wish the internet wasn't acting funny so I'd know...gah!

I had a lot of fun tonight. I had to work today which was of course boring and frusterated cause of the person I worked with but ya know. Then Beka and Samm and I went out to eat at Fleetword which was muchly yummy, Beka and I went in our costumes which are HOT! Then Beka and I went to pass candy out at her Grandma's house which was a lot of fun and of course crazy cause we took my dog with us to be the big bad wolf, which was hilarious cause she's so tiny. After that we went to Spence's house to see him and do trick or treating with him but not really we just talked at his place and watching The house on haunted hill for a bit but Beka freaked out cause she hates scary movies and attempting to squeeze my hand to death which is nearly impossible. But I like Spencer a lot so it was fun and he kept trying to tickle me, grr! Must have revenge! Damn he's not ticklish! LOL Well I'm off to my bed, I have school...what joy..ok not really sweatdrop

How do you handle something when you've never been in that situation? It's difficult for me to be so slow with someone and not know whats going on in that situation. I just want to be with that person and have fun, its just hard cause I don't know how to do that. Every person I've been with has pushed something on me that I myself didn't have the will power to stop. I regret most of it now and wish it would all just go away but it won't. Now I can only move on and whats worse I don't know how to get out of the spot of doing whats usually going on. All I want is this person and its just so hard to not having that person be forward. Oy I don't know, just my thoughts running crazy through my head.

This is so annoying, I can't sleep. It's midnight and I still am not very tired. How annoying!! I am going to be so crabby tomarrow!! Oh and on top of that I can't sell any items it keeps saying that it can't reach the cheese_archive, whatever the hell that is. Oy how stressful, last night it wouldn't turn on and now I can't sell. Whats next? my avi is gonna disappear for a few days?? cry

I had had the best day today. I went out with Spence which was awesome and we just hung out which we've never really done outside of school unless a group was involved. We went to Flats and then watched a movie at my house which was fun considering it was Star Wars and Star Wars rocks!! lol yes I am a huge sci-fi nut so deal with it!! lol It was just a great day and I'm happy about it, especially after last night which I won't go into cause it just bad.... stressed

I was just looking through the marketplace and I am so in want of an item. It's called a nightmare bustiere (sp) I believe thats the wrong spelling but its the general idea. The only problem is that its so expensive, I need to actually find one though that I can afford or maybe stumble upon or if grateful people are out there would like to give it to me xd But yeah I also think that the black collar with cross on it is so cute and would go great with the nightmare bustiere (sp) so thats another expensive item I have to find, stumble upon or be grateful to a person for. Ok I'm done now. Back to your regularly scheduled programming.