Okay so yesterday, I had a bumming experience.
Alright, so well, My step dad Josh wanted me and Kayla to get out of the house and ask our friends out to a movie.
and well, I have this thing where I don't really have any real friends that I feel I can trust right now.
and well I thought I'd Ask Hailey one of the last few people I trust and instead of her being there for me to talk to she was with Alyssa, so I thought "hey, maybe we could all go to the movie together and have fun." you know thinking positively.
So I IM Alyssa asking her and Hailey who is with her if they want to go and see a movie.
I tell them the times and the movies that are showing, and I guess I got my hopes up, because the next thing I know, Alyssa says "well, we've already see the only movie worth watching there so we'll go when I new one comes out." WTF! how retarded is that?
I mean seriously, if your gonna reject me, don't wait it out so I get my hopes up do it right away.
so after that I burst out in tears at the fact I had no friends, and it true I sorta don't.
none that I feel I click with anyways.
and well I just thought that was like a slap in the face and not exactly cool.
I mean I know they don't give a s**t.
but they don't know what it feels like when your little sisters have friends and you don't.
and you wanna go out and have fun but the people you ask always say no.
and Another thing.
Hailey was supposed to be the friend in the middle that me and Alyssa could BOTH count on.
I haven't seen Hailey ******** ONCE outside of church, since this happened.
I feel like she's not in the middle anymore, but she's on alyssa's side.
and that hurts me more, because she was all I had left and now I don't even really talk to either of them.
I talk to myself, or i don't talk at all.
its not right.
I feel Neglected, and hurt.
and I know, that no one gives a flying s**t.
I don't want people to be my friends just cuz they feel sorry for me.
******** that.
If I don't have friends that are you know, Actual GOOD friends, screw you, leave me alone.
its a bunch of bullshit.
and I'm sick of it.
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