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So guess what?
I'm in college now.
Freaky, ne? I've been here for nearly a week (But it feels like it's been much longer) I miss everyone a lot, and my stomach hurts from all the awful food, but I'm fine basically everywhere but my gut. I'm a pretty lame college student. I still don't want to get drunk, and my Idea of going out, as of yet, is grocery shopping and Panera Bread. Still, my bed is comfortable, I think I've just started to make some friends and classes seem feasable.
Calope0 · Wed Sep 02, 2009 @ 02:35am · 0 Comments |
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Longest two weeks of my life. Not ike I thought that the promise was still valid. They didn't show up last thanksgiving either. Now I'm full circle, but I know I was loved, and that it was all true. And somehow, that makes it more bearable.
Calope0 · Sat Nov 22, 2008 @ 02:13pm · 1 Comments |
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There was a lock across my heart, if you looked deep enough to see. I bound it tight to keep me safe with no entry given free.
The key that hangs around their neck Opened my heart too wide
It spilled out all my feelings, and now nothings left inside.
Calope0 · Sun Sep 07, 2008 @ 08:34pm · 0 Comments |
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How long would you wait?
A week, a month? Two or six? A year? A hundred, a thousand?
How long will I wait?
Two years? Four?
Will I be free one day?
Is it something to be respected, or something to deride?
It isn't wrong, though.
A ghost can always love another ghost.
One for the home team.
Calope0 · Mon Sep 01, 2008 @ 12:26am · 0 Comments |
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If I can't move forward in time now,
If this two week period streatches out into infinity,
Can't I go back?
Back to that joy I had.
Back in time.
Calope0 · Thu Aug 14, 2008 @ 05:00pm · 0 Comments |
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So, big step here, I want to play collegiate Lacrosse. Better than that, I have my eye set on DI and DII schools. I do not want to play DIII. I want the competition. I am going to become an "elite" player. I'm not terribly far off, honestly. It is something that takes dedication on top of skill, and time. Frankly, I look forward to it. I am excited to become a better player, a better goalie, and to prolong my lacrosse career as long as possible.
Calope0 · Sun Jul 13, 2008 @ 01:14am · 0 Comments |
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So the trip was a failure. I know that this is nearly a month late, but it was the wrong place to look. And I don't have anywhere else, either. But I wanted to show that there wasn't a total loss.
So, the good things. -I got to learn how to drive on the appalacian mountains, or just how to drive up mountains in general. -I got to see a land where land isn't just space between water, which is so like where I live now, but a place were water is just space between land. Where it has cut the landsape for centuries. -I saw the Ohio river. And slept on its banks. Its one thing to know about a place, and another to see it and touch it. Their ghosts move on a lot more slowly out there. -I saw my first strip mine. -I saw a different kind of poverty line. -My world, and my understanding of the world, grew so much more. Much of the east coast is the same. There are plenty of jobs, and many more people. There are schools that are close, and well kept roads, and safety precautions out the wazoo. I see Cadillacs and Mercedes on a regular basis, but I would bet that there were enough to count on one hand in all the towns I passed through. Washington D.C. has warped all the area around it.
What is more precious than all I have seen..?
Calope0 · Sun Jun 22, 2008 @ 03:52pm · 0 Comments |
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No matter how sad I am, right now I am protected.
Calope0 · Mon May 26, 2008 @ 01:43am · 0 Comments |
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