I realized I haven't updated in a while and thought I should.
Can I tell you something that really sucks? It's just one stupid little word....Love.
Yeah that's right, and over the months sadly, I've come to hate it.
I don't hate loving people, it's quite simple really to just pretend to love someone.
I"ve done it all the time, and because of it there is probably nobody I hate more than myself. Which is why acting is such a big part of my life. It's something I do without thinking, like a great big game of prentend....
But what does an actress do when she wants things to be real? Or when she can't figure out what's real or not? Can people who have acted all thier life, be thier true selfs around someone?
On a whole different thought...why do people constantly feel like they need to be in love? Is it hormones or loneliness? Do people ever end happilly ever after?
One thing about my life I hate the most is all the drama in it. All the love triangles...it makes me feel like giving up and just wishing I'd end up alone. I wouldn't care, because really I've always thought I'd end up alone, even as a kid.
When people asked if I tought I would get married someday I'd say I'd like to but it'll never happen. It's not because I'm pessimestic, even in my happiest times where I was never alone I've thought of it. Because I get the feeling that no one in the world will fully accept me, and even if there was there is a less chance that I'd tell them everything...Such is life ^_^
Anyways don't bother with me, I'm not depressed and I'm not all acting happy about it just to try and not make you worried. This is a part of the real me that I've decided to share. A part of my twisted sense and mind. Life moves on neh?
Don't fall behind, catch up, because life won't always be kind enough to wait for you...
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