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I dreamed something really distrubing about two weeks ago that id like you guys to read. please comment! But anyway...what i dreamed was so damn disturbing. well here goes...I'm driving down the 91 freeway, and im heading to my house. In my dream my bf and me were married. I was driving my bf. and his ex, to our house. If you got confused there...let me explain. for some reason, my bf's ex had apologized to me about every little bad thing that she ever did to me. but anyway, she was in my car and i was taking her home with me. My bf was in the back seat with her. When we got to our house she asked me for some clothes to wear, cuz she was wearing her usual slutty clothes and wanted to 'cover up'. but anyway i gave her some clothes to borrow and she went into the bathroom to change. I went into my bf.'s and my room and i put away all my things. but as soon as i did that, i heard laughing form the bethroom. as it turned out my bf and his ex were in the bathroom together. I went in there and found the two in the shower. i was so completely stunned and damn pissed too! but you know what happened? they asked me to join them! i thought they had both lost their damn minds! but anyway, i asked my bf what the hell was going on and he simply laughed at me. he said that i shouldnt be surprised because he had been with all kinds of chicks even when we were going out. But anyway i got out of the bathroom and got that bithches s**t and threw it out on the street. i kicked her out of my house and i started argueing with my bf. i told him to leave me and to leave our house. he refused and said that he wasnt going anywhere cuz the house also belonged to him.
I got pissed and called my cuzin. she told me to come over to her house and that she would help me sort out threw everything. So i got all my important things and left the house. my bf told me not to leave and forbid me from going to my cuzins. but as he had obviously decieved me, i didnt care any more. so i took off to my cuzins house. oh! by the way, my cuzin is very 'outgoing' so if she sounds like a party freak its because she is! lol! anyway. i got to my cuzins and told her everything that had happened. she told me not too worry cuz her 'friends' would help me out with dealing with my cheating hubbie. anyway, she told me that i should get fixed up and go out to a party with her. i refused at first because of everything that had happened i just didnt feel like a party was the way to go. but she convinced me and we went. i took my car and she took her truck. Oh my god! i had some tight a** car too!!!lol! but anyway, we were at the party and all her guy friends had heard what had happened and told me that they would do anything to my bf that i told them to do. i just said that he wasnt worth the trouble and i just went in search of my cuzin. as soon as i found her she was presenting me with this guy. but the thing is that the guy looked exactly how my bf did when i first met him(my bf looks much older now cuz of his gotae and beard)i was really surprised and kinda creeped out...but i got to know the guy. it was like i was with my bf all over again, except for this guy was as sweet as can be. i got drunk and the guy offered to take me to my cuzins house. but he ended up taking me to his house. i told him that i had to go home with my cuzin and that it wasnt right that i was with him. after all i was still married and all. but he sweet talked me and i said ok. he had two rooms so i was meant to sleep in one and he was gonna sleep in his. but as i went out to my car to get my sleeping clothes(for some reason i had my sleeping clothes in my car)my bf was right there. he was beyond pissed! he began yelling at me and even tried to hit me. but that guy stopped the whole thing and was defending me. my bf went completely insane and started calling me a slut and all kinds of things. the guy somehow sent my bf home and i kinda wanted to pass out. the guy luckily catched me and took me to his house. everything went black for a lil bit and when i opened my eyes(im still sleeping)i was in his bed. i wanted to get out of there as soon as i could but i was buzzed and i was feeling real lightheaded. he told me to relax. he said he wouldnt do anything i didnt want him to do. so i laid back down on his bed and then he leaned over and he kissed me. he automatically apologized. he started saying that looking at me like that he couldnt resist. it was so weird!!!! but anyway, i just looked at him and then i kissed him back...then things lead to another and well...we just ended up together.
thats what i dreamed. for some reason...that dream was the reason why my bf admitted what had happened so long ago.
pinkichigo2 · Fri May 20, 2005 @ 01:59am · 1 Comments |
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Things between my bf and me are getting a bit hard right now. he confessed to me two weeks ago about something he did. it almost broke my heart in two, but i held on strong. he told me that he had his ex sleep over at his house when we where going out for about three months. even though that was awhile ago...i felt bad about the whole thing. he actually was crying to me and telling me he was so sorry. that because he was such a jerk with me that he thought i would have left him by now. but as it turned out, i didnt. i wasn't or im nothing like he expected. he thought i would be just like his ex's. he said all i ever did was be sweet to him and take all his s**t. and not once did i raise my voice or curse at him for being a jerk with me. i was surprised he even said all of that.
but anyway, things where getting better for awhile and then on sunday...he was being a jerk again. only this time a was being a little mean with him. the thing was that my uncle, who i hadnt seen in 8 years, had finally come out of prison. the only thing was that he was in mexico and my bf couldnt go with me(my bf doesnt have legal papers to be in the us) so anyway, he forbid me from going. he said he didnt want me to go and that he wanted me to go his house after my family left. it was really bad because he said he would leave me if i didnt do as he said. thats when i became a toatl b***h with him and told him that he couldnt do that to me or make me feel guilty about things(he said if i truly love him i wouldnt go to see my uncle) he hung up the phone and i threw it across the room. i was really pissed and then the phone rings again. hes calling me and yelling at me saying why the ******** i hung up the phone. it was pure hell!
pinkichigo2 · Tue May 17, 2005 @ 03:09am · 1 Comments |
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I havent been online for awhile due to the reason that ive gotten a job and that i havent had much time to be online! sorry you guys!!! Ive missed talking with everybody!! I hope I havent missed out too much on things!
pinkichigo2 · Sat May 14, 2005 @ 05:15am · 1 Comments |
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you guys...please read this. |
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gonk crying gonk I got caught up in the rain today!! I was coming home early because my bf had other things to do and I was walking my butt home. All of a sudden I feel raindrops on my face! I was like holy f**! Im gonna get soaked! and thats what ended up happening!! To make matters worse there were some sick perverts following me in their car asking if i wanted a ride! ha!! they probably that *this chick is so wet lets trick her into getting in our car and telling her we'll give her a ride home but we should run off with her!* ha! fat chance! but they wouldnt leave me alone and they kept making sick comments on how my shirt was sticking to my chest!! DAMN!! I feel horrible! gonk
pinkichigo2 · Fri Apr 22, 2005 @ 08:34pm · 2 Comments |
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I got this idea from another friend and i wanted to try it out myself! so answer all the questions truthfully! ok?
What would you do if:
[1] I took my own life. [2] I said I liked you. [3] I kissed you. [4] I lived right next door to you. [5] I started smoking. [6] I was being hurt. [7] I was hospitalized. [8] I ran away from home. [9] I got into a fight and I needed a place to hide.
What do you think about my:
[1] Personality. [2] Eyes. [3] Face. [4] Body. [5] Manners.
Other:
[1] Who are you? [2] Are we friends? [3] When and how did we meet? [4] How have I affected you? [5] What do you think of me? [6] What's the fondest memory you have of me? [7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies? [8] Do you love me? [9] Have I ever hurt you? [10] Would you hug me? [11] Would you kiss me? [12] Would you ******** me? [13] Would you marry me? [14] Emotionally, what stands out? [15] On a scale of 1-10, how well do I look? [16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I? [17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. [18] Am I loveable? [19] How long have you known me? [20] Describe me in one word. [21] What was your first impression? [22] Do you still think that way about me now? [23] What do you think my weakness is? [24] Do you think I'll get married? [25] What about me makes you happy? [26] What about me makes you sad? [27] What reminds you of me? [28] What's something you would change about me? [29] Would you change how I am? [30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? [31] How well do you know me? [32] Are we close?
pinkichigo2 · Wed Apr 20, 2005 @ 09:58pm · 7 Comments |
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Today my bf got really upset with me. I didnt even find out why until much later. The entire day he was being really mean and he was making me feel real bad. I had been asking him all day long what it was that was wrong with him...but he didnt tell me. It turned out that he had gotten jealous because he said he had catched some guys looking at me. I was really surprised and he got more upset about the whole thing. I felt bad because i didnt even know what had happened until much later...I think he should have said something before getting mad at me for something I didnt even do. crying
pinkichigo2 · Tue Apr 19, 2005 @ 06:32am · 1 Comments |
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damn im getting sick!! and its all because my tummys been acting up!!! awwww this sucks! but yah... sweatdrop
pinkichigo2 · Mon Apr 18, 2005 @ 12:40am · 1 Comments |
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ay!! im sooo freakin lonely!!! ive been in my room for the past two weeks without going outside! i feel real bad!!! and sometimes i dont get to eat until the day after....im getting hungry... gonk awww!!! this sucks!!!
pinkichigo2 · Sun Apr 17, 2005 @ 12:38am · 2 Comments |
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