It's been said that you learn something everyday. Well, on Sunday I learned something new about myself.
Sunday afternoon. As usual, the extended family gets together to have our Memorial Day cookout. Despite other matters that had gotten me down earlier I was able to have fun that day. It was sunny and warm, and I was in a good mood. Even my uncles, who often drink a lot during these get-togethers, were behaving themselves, well at least for a while...
I won't get into the details, but one family member was out of control. He was notorious for harassing other family members, but it never ever gotten to the point where fighting would break out. I guess things were different today.
He decides to pick on another family member, since the others he's used to picking on wasn't present. The person he was harassing was someone I personally know well, and I knew he wouldn't submit to the constant insults and banter thrown at him.
Then the arguments got louder.
The family member I know well tried to keep away from this family member but the other family member wouldn't back down. Everyone tried to keep them apart, including my mom. The other family member tried furiously to get by my mom, almost to the point where she could've gotten hurt. Without warning, he threw a chair at the the family member I know well, missing my mom by a single thread.
At this point I felt sick. I'm not sure if it was a sick feeling or not, but I'm pretty sure I haven't felt this in a long time. Was it rage? Hate? That I don't know; before I got a chance to actually act on those feelings, the family member I know well rushed him and beat him. In the head. Hard. I didn't stop the pummling; I almost even smiled. Then I heard the frantic cries of my little cousin. Whatever I was feeling before was quickly quelled. The fight eventually was broken up, and we left before the family member whose pride was just crushed could get his weapon out of the house.
Was I wrong to feel that way? Maybe I'm just overreacting, since it does take a lot to get me angry. I guess I should sit down and figure out what makes me tick.
If you're reading this, and you know me personally, am I known to be a violent person?
*sigh* Another set of strange incidents...
Until the next time I write, The way of Iai is not easy...
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