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sometimes i get this feeling.
this feeling of anger and hatred.
i can't stop this tearing.
it's eating me away.
bit by bit.
piece by piece.
and now these tears are pouring down my face.
i can't stop them.
tears of love.
tears of hate.
tears of life.
tears of death.
tears of all the crap that i've gone through over the years.
fights.
make ups.
break ups.
having my heart ripped to shreds by someone i loved.
once upon a time.
now the tears are fading.
but the hurt is still there.
for everone to see.
but i'm so used to hiding it with cheer.
i know it's not good and one da i'm just going to burst.
alll the emotions will come pouring out all at once.
not one person will know what reall happened.
perhaps my dog.
but that would be all.
no one else.
i've given up on life is reall all im saying.
well i'm at least half wa there.
it's getting late.
i'll just finish this later if you read it before i finish.