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She looks in the mirror she's hateing what she see
and everynight she crys her self to sleep
with her razor blade on the night stand
As she goes to school the kids in the hall push her down
she lets them push her around
as she falls to the ground
she hides in the bathroom stall as the razor blade from the night stand
cuts deep into her skin she foucases on the bleeding pain
instead of the pain deep with in her heart
that makes her wish she would just die
but she were to die the world just wouldn't be same with out her
she puts a smile on my face everytime i see her blue eyes shine
but if those blue eyes were to stop shining
my world would come crashing down
dont die please
dont take the hand of the Angel of death
take my hand i'll show you the light i'll show you the love i have for you
(my friend wrote this song for me)

I’m your silent angel
In your heart is where I will stay
Friends until our lives will end
A true friend in every way
I understand your worries
I can feel your pain
I will try to bring you sunshine
On the days you see rain
I will try to make you smile
When you are feeling bad
I’ll try to chase away your woes
I will be there when you’re feeling sad
Remember me when the song thrush sings
Or with the scent of fresh cut grass
I am a friend that you can rely on
I offer a friendship that will last

Where the sunshines and the sweet scent of roses is in the air
I will wait for you
Where the grass grows green and the air is warm
I will always belleive in you
With the sounds of the ocean and the sun is setting
I will always be here for you
Where the stars shine bright and the nighting gales sing
I will give up my life for you
With the beating of my heart
I will forever love you

We maybe miles away from each other
But it won't keep us apart for to long
I don't know much and i don't know right from wrong
But what i do know is that i love you
And im hopeing that is enough
I don't have much to give you
In fact i don't have nothing at all
But i'll give you my heart and my endless love

I smile when ever i talk to you
You brighten up my day
I was sad and lonely
But now that i've found you
I'm happy as can be! !
I love you more then life it's self
I am forever yours Tyrell

Can't you see what your doing to me?
Can't you see that your killing me?
Leaving me drowning in this sadness and misery
Can't you see that you've sucked the happiness out of me to the point where i can't even fake a smile anymore?
Can't you see that im slowly dieing because of you?
Leaving me for the crows to carry my broken soul to the other side
Can't you see me anymore?
Have i become invisable to you?
Leaving me to fade away forever in the darkness
Can't you see that you broke my heart into so many tiny pieces?
Can't you see that i still very much love you?
Leaving me to wait forever for you... maybe someday you will see me

I'm screaming, Can you hear me?
I'm broken, Can you see me?
I'm falling apart, Do you even care why?
Why can't I just be me
Do I have the choice to live or die, ?
But is it enough?
Do I have the choice?
If i was to say how i feel
Would you be sad?
It's no big deal or is it?
If i told you that i cry every night
Wishing i would die
If i can't be with you
I'd let my emotions out, i wouldn't have to hide
I could scream and shout
Until my lungs give out
Would you hear me?
But if you would really listen
If you would let me speak too
Then you would know what i've been missing
What I've been missing is you

My heart beats only for you
My hands reach out for the softness of your skin
My ears hear your voice in the distance
If only you knew how much i loved you
If only you knew how much pain and suffering you gave me
As i watched from the sidelines seeing you love her as much as i love you
I'd rip out my own heart and give to you only for you to walk away from me like the other times
If only you knew....
If only you would open your eyes for one second and see how much love i have for you
and then maybe i could be the girl you hold everynight in your arms and whisper in her ear' i love you'
I would give anything for you to look me like you look at her with soo much love
But a girl can only wish that would happen
And sometimes i wish i never met you and maybe i wouldn't be writeing this
But all i can do is wait for that one day when you say 'i've always loved you'
And waiting for that day is like waiting for world peace..it will never happen
Maybe i should give up on love, on life, maybe i should give up on you
As im standing in the rain with tears running down my face
Just remember
My heart beats only for you
My hands reach out for the softness of your skin
My ears hear your voice in the distance
My tears fall from my blue eyes like the rain falls from the sky

If only you see how much i love you