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it's been forever and ever since i've actually BEEN on gaia- much less made a journal entry. so, since i'm in winter break and there's nothing to do today, i figured why not make one! ...also, those GODAWFUL pictures of me are SO old. puhlease.
s in my updatelife as of 12/20/06 -i'm single, but not looking because i [kindof] have someone, but we'll never date. it's a wee bit complicated. -i'm still a bit hung-up on my ex, jamie. it was the first serious relationship i'd ever had and it's only been a month since it ended. and not only was he my boyfriend, he was my best friend. you can't just stop loving your best friend. -i'm not a slut. if you think i am then you can go suck a nut. -my best friends in the world are stephy, carrie, heather and brooke. i love you guys uber muches. -i go to nelson county high school which sucks. seriously. -i sort of live in hickville. it depends on where you are in the county. there's about 40% rednecks, 20% hippies, 20% ghetto, 15% rich bitches, and 5% of the rest of us. -i get decent grades which i work my butt off for. i'm so annoyed by people who don't have to work to get good grades. -i love the television show Veronica Mars. it's the best ever. -my favorite color is purple. obviously, because it's the best color ever. -i love snickerdoodles. -myspace is gay. but i have one. www.myspace.com/deviantxbutterfly -acting and singing is everything to me. they're about the only two talents i have. -i'm a HUGE american idol fan. -my favorite bands are stone sour and disturbed. -my favorite singers are chris daughtry and alanis morisette.
Ignore the white blurb there, it was an incorrect date.
Me and my lovely wilburkins. Sorry it's dark.
A while back when my hair was reddish blonde.
EWLOOKATTHEBADHAIR. me in DC. i can't believe how blonde my hair was...
i love this picture. this is in a dorm room at montreat. I STOLE THAT LION STATUE! it was REEEEEEALLY heavy and i had bruises. =(
[IMGhttp://i98.photobucket.com/albums/l280/Snickerdoodlesx/Moi/th_scan.jpg[/IMG] again. i LOVE this picture. it's me being a french maid in a play. eeekilookfat,though.
BIRTHDAYGIRL.
lookatmetheglamourqueen.
pretty, pretty princess. BLONDE!
pouty, pout
MERRY HOLIDAYS, EVERYONE!
+DEViANT BUTTERFLY+ · Wed Dec 20, 2006 @ 04:53pm · 0 Comments |
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Entry copied from my website (lazy me...) |
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Yes. Yes, I was.
And if felt GOOOOOOOOOOOD.
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So Saturday Sami came over VERY unexpectedly and we watched Friends and That 70s Show. Then her mother came and got us and we went back to her house, packed some food and other picnic things, and headed to Sherando Lake! I hadn't been there in YEARS, so I didn't really remember it much. When we first got there, Sami and I walked around and saw these two dudes playing frisbee. Hawt(ish). Then when we got into the lake, this fat 7-year-old looking girl came up to me and started splashing me which REALLY pissed me off. I swear, I was about to kick her face in... So pleasant my attitude is, I know... We swam out to the little island and I told Sami that it would be a very romantic and wickedly awesome place to have sex. She, although, did not agree. crying Then we played a cheery and leaving-Nikki-out-of game of frisbee. I think I was left out because I sucked, though. >_> Then we ate boca burgers (yummy-licous) and got candy from the vending machines. We left around...8:30ish and watched Saved when we got home. BEST MOVIE EVER. Then Sami and I went through her journals from her old, depressed, mega-emoish days. VERY strange...
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Sunday morning, Sami woke up BEFORE me AND made me breakfast. I had to make sure she wasn't feverish or delirious at the time. She wasn't. She actually got up at about 9:45ish. <_< I think something's seriously wrong with her. So at about 11, my dad picked us up and took us to Lake Monocan which is like a bathtub compared to Sherando. And it's boring as crap. My grandparents came and they loved Sami's I <3 NY tee-shirt. Of course they did, though... We stayed until...4:30ish and came home and I was hella tired. Then I went to bed until 5:45 when I had to go over to Krista's and babysit for her three kids while she and her friend Jim (who as I found out later is Kayley Gannon's father) went to a Bruce Hornsby concert at the new pavillion in Charlottesville. I stayed until 11 and got $30 bucks from it. Yay. I sat down with Willow and Dakota (2 youngest kids) and watched Finding Nemo and I fell asleep. They didn't, of course. I'm terrified of them telling their mother that the babysitter fell asleep during a movie, but I don't think they will. I don't really even think that they noticed.
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This morning, it took me forever to get all of the silly string out of my hair from last night. Damn kids...
+DEViANT BUTTERFLY+ · Tue Aug 23, 2005 @ 10:18pm · 2 Comments |
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What should REALLY be in the bible! *godish music plays* |
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I don't know if you'll get this Or even where you'll be You could be halfway through Pennsylvania Or somewhere in New Jersey
Well I just wanted to let you know This past week has been a blast Well it's good to finally have a friend Who doesn't know about my past
'Cause I don't know what to say Nothing seems like what you're into So tell me baby will you lay Beside me for a while Nothing big Just wanted to see you smile one last time
See boy I'm usually strong But you're makin' me loose control Baby when I look into your eyes I see what's missing in my heart and soul
'Cause I don't know what to say Nothing seems like what you're into So tell me baby will you lay Beside me for a while Nothing big Just wanted to see you smile
So you can stop me if I get too much Tear this up and throw it away But baby please just let me know If you'll be comin' back my way, oh
+DEViANT BUTTERFLY+ · Mon Aug 08, 2005 @ 06:32pm · 6 Comments |
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*punches top of head* Later, Ry. |
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And that's what I said to him. "Later, Ry." LATER, RY?! What the bloody hell was I thinking?! The whole night was a bust, really.
Right, so I get there about...5:30 and the MINUTE I walk in the door, Michelle comes running up to me; "Can we go on the trampoline? Can we go on the trampoline?" -_- So we went, I EXTREMELY reluctantly, although I wouldn't have had much to do at the house considering the race was still on television. HONESTLY, I thought Ryland said he didn't watch much TV. >< So anyways, I was hoping that Ryland would come to the trampoline with us, but he didn't. So BUST. >< I went back up to the house for a bit and watched the last four laps of the race. BORING. I mean, honestly, what is so friggen interesting about a bunch of cars going around a racetrack?!?!?! Anywho, so I had to play Uno with little kids for 2 rounds. Then Ryland FINALLY came and played with us. So that wasn't TOO bad. He won. Damn begginner's luck!!! >< Dinner was scrum-diddly-o. Mac-n-cheese, green beans (all I ate because of the vegeterianism. xD). Um, so after that we all went downstairs. Megan opened her presents for her new baby (born Tuesday, Isabella Fortune) and we watched some crime show on TV. Like, CSI I think... I accidentally stepped on Marcus' head (Hey, he was lying on the floor! He was asking for it!!!!!!!!!) So before my parents left, Grandaddy showed us his new "toy". THEY GOT A FRIGGEN HOTTUB!!! And the lights on the insides change color!!! It was flippen' AWESOME!!! So Ryland and I got into a little mini water fight. I was standing next to him in the corner and he put his hand on the jet and it shot up into my face. I swear, it's like that's how the two of us bond. >< I was hoping that they wouldn't cover it back up and that they would leave me and Ryland out there because I really needed to talk to him. But NOOOOO. All they had to say was the one magic word and Ryland went running inside. "Pudding" -___- But I had to leave at 9:30 (dumbass parents make me babysit early in the morning >< wink , and I went upstairs to ask for a flashlight so that I could see my way home and not step on snakes. Wayne goes "Get Ryland to take you home." and then everyone else in the kitchen started saying that, too. I have to admit, I DID want it. My face propably turned bright red and my heart was racing about...eh...20 million miles an hour minimum? So I hugged Jimmy and he goes "Aw, y'all don't make her embarassed, I'll walk you home, Nicole." What was I supposed to say?! "No, I want Ryland to walk me home so that I can tell him that I think I'm in love with him."?!?!?!?! So we went downstairs and I said bye to everyone. I walk over to Ryland who was lying down at the time, I punch the top of his head lightly and go "See you later, Ry." I mean, WHAT THE HELL?!?!?!
So now I'm here at home. Joey's being my little cheerleader and he says that I should call next door, ask for Ryland and tell him. But how EMBARASSING would that be?! Anywho, I'll keep you posted on whatever the hell I should keep you posted on. 'Nights.
+DEViANT BUTTERFLY+ · Mon Aug 08, 2005 @ 03:08am · 3 Comments |
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*celebrates like a loon on loon pills* |
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VampireKisses37: Hello. Darkdude024: . . .yo VampireKisses37: Heh. VampireKisses37: How're you? Darkdude024: . . .eh VampireKisses37: Yeah... VampireKisses37: I'm feeling 'bout the same. Darkdude024: I'm just listenin to music n chillin VampireKisses37: Cool. VampireKisses37: What have you been up to today? Darkdude024: nthn VampireKisses37: Oh. VampireKisses37: That's cool. Darkdude024: Yup VampireKisses37: So... VampireKisses37: Kinda left on a bad foot last night, eh? Darkdude024: ohh. . .lil bit VampireKisses37: Heh. VampireKisses37: I shouldn't have signed off like that. Darkdude024: oh yeah. . .that was shitty,but eh. . .what ya gonna do. . .not like i have magical powers. . .wish I did tho. . .that'd own VampireKisses37: Haha.] VampireKisses37: I love it how you can just find humor in things like that. Darkdude024: Well,It's my talent VampireKisses37: Make me laugh when I don't think I could even bear to smile. Darkdude024: I'd rather have you laugh then fart. . .that'd be worse then crying!. . .my cousins prove that all the time VampireKisses37: Aw. Darkdude024: I swear,she gets back from the hospital,and she farts right next to me the second she says Hi VampireKisses37: AW. VampireKisses37: Sounds like my family. Darkdude024: Cool,Cool VampireKisses37: I suppose. VampireKisses37: >< VampireKisses37: Can I just ask you one thing? Darkdude024: Sure VampireKisses37: Have you cried? Like...at all? Darkdude024: No. . .Gotten close. . .been depressed as ********. . .threw up Darkdude024: but I never cry VampireKisses37: You thre up? VampireKisses37: *threw Darkdude024: . . .check the journal Darkdude024: I felt like I do now Darkdude024: and puked VampireKisses37: Ah... VampireKisses37: I'll check your's if you check mine. ^_^ Darkdude024: Already did VampireKisses37: There's nothing I hate more than people who read and don't comment. Darkdude024: . . . Darkdude024: I just didn't want to leave a note there. . . VampireKisses37: The entry I just wrote like...an hour ago? Darkdude024: I wanted to tell you it Darkdude024: and yes Darkdude024: hat one Darkdude024: that* VampireKisses37: Oh. VampireKisses37: ;_; Darkdude024: and actually. . . Darkdude024: 2 hours ago VampireKisses37: Oh, whatever. VampireKisses37: >< Darkdude024: heh Darkdude024: Well. . .I wanted to say I was sorry for saying stuff like I did. . .but I meant it. . .I really am pissed that you like this guy,and he's a distance person,like me,and that I am sorry for wasting your time and making you feel like this for nothing. . .cause in the end,it was just for the moment if you look at it. . .we never thought it through. . .and I just wanted to hold on to the belief that I could be with you if we just waited VampireKisses37: Yeah. VampireKisses37: I feel the same way. Darkdude024: And i feel like total s**t Darkdude024: cause I wa really gonna try VampireKisses37: Ditto. VampireKisses37: You can ask Daytona. VampireKisses37: I just got off the phone with him. Darkdude024: I do still love you too Darkdude024: but since we can't be like we want. . . Darkdude024: do you think we could be friends,but be friends that like. . .talk like bf n gf,and are Close? Darkdude024: And talk about stuff to each other like we did? VampireKisses37: Yeah. VampireKisses37: But it like...be okay if we get feelings for other people. VampireKisses37: ? Darkdude024: -smiles- I'll even rp with you still Darkdude024: and. . .sure. . . Darkdude024: I'll still be there even if you do liek other guys VampireKisses37: Thanks. VampireKisses37: I think that my liking other guys is just part of my being 13. Darkdude024: well. . .maybe when we get older. . . Darkdude024: and I get to go there. . . VampireKisses37: Yeah. VampireKisses37: Definetely. Darkdude024: we can be together again? VampireKisses37: Posilutely. VampireKisses37: ^_^ VampireKisses37: Absotively. Darkdude024: Much Love Nikki Darkdude024: Much Darkdude024: Love
I guess that explains EVERYTHING! YAY!
+DEViANT BUTTERFLY+ · Fri Aug 05, 2005 @ 05:50am · 2 Comments |
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Change journal title? ...Please? |
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Right, so I'm about to be VERY un-Nikki. I just need to get this s**t off my chest and stuff, so here goes.
My awesomely awesome life doesn't seem so fabbity fab fab anymore. Vince and I have broken up. I'm sad to say that I think it's for good. The fight last night (or early this morning, whichever term you use for 4 in the morning) was disasterous. The tears I shed were like Niagra. ...Only worse. >< See, I've been away in music-a-gogo land having the time of my life. The time of my life including meeting a boy. A boy who I propably will never have a chance with, but have fallen for anyways. And you know what? Telling the truth only brings les miserables. I told Vince that I was having some feelings for other guys (one in particular) and that it was propably just temperary because we can't be together (3000 miles distance= hard to see) and he got really upset. I mean, I guess I can't blame him. He may have taken it well the last time I freaked like this, but I suppose everything can't always be sunny side up. And you know what he said? He would have rather me have not told him. He would have rather had me lie and be all happy and s**t. Well I wasn't happy then and I'm still not happy.
*sigh* If you read, please comment. ><
+DEViANT BUTTERFLY+ · Fri Aug 05, 2005 @ 03:15am · 3 Comments |
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