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I have become SOLAR WIND infuriated. My mother yelled at me today and I wanted to rip someone in shreds. I wanted to punch until all that was left was a mark on the wall. I hate it when people yell at me, and my mom yelled at me because I was confused as to why an ant was on my hand in my room. She has friends coming over tomorrow, and everytime she has "friends coming over" she ******** FLIPS OUT for no DAMN REASON. s**t!!!!! I am so angry I want to cry, because I've been afraid of my parents ever since I was little, but it's usually my dad that makes me think I'm not part of this world... My mom occasionally flips out, but she's never held me against my will.... OK, let me explain: after she yelled at me, I wanted to go outside to cool off for a bit, but when I went towards the door, she blocked it and yelled "OH NO, YOU'RE NOT GOING TO THROW A TEMPER TANTRUM ON ME, YOU'RE GOING TO STAY INSIDE AND DO CHORES!!!" I had to run out the back door and around the house to get away. This might not seem like a big deal to many of you, but I had said that I had homework to do, and she ignored what I said and ordered that I clean the bathroom, which is very hypocritical of her, since she started crying a few days ago when she found out that I might get a D in history. I hope God helps me sort some of this out, because I can't understand why all of this is happening... My dad says that church is a bad influence on me and mom, because he said that the people at church were mean to him a long time ago and so he doesn't want to see them any more, but I don't understand, because he's never said what they did to him. He won't forgive others and doesn't trust anyone... HE HOLDS GRUDGES AGAINST EVERYONE. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!

To those who know me in RL:
ANGER LEVEL 2.5/5

IF I EVER REACH LEVEL 5, THAT WILL BE A BAD DAY.