...but here's my reason. Why cause unnecessary awkwardness. Why change a thusfar perfect friendship when it's not need. Telling him, I have found out, would change nothing. He's not interested in that kind of a relationship...with anyone....At least for now.....And I've come to the conclusion that, yes, he is worth waiting for. And if sometime until then, by some weird misplaced mriacle happens, someone asks me out, sure I'll go (depending on the person) because let's face it, I'm in a major need of some experience. But to be honest, I can't really see myself moving away from him of my own accord. With him, I can say what I really think. With him, I'm constantly laughing. With him, I don't have to worry about judgment. I love his sense of humor, his ease, his thoughts. I love his expressions, his hands, the way he explains things. The way we can have a mini-conversation without even using words is somehow comforting. And, of course, he has flaws like everyone else. He's kinda lazy sometimes but really never much more than the rest of us. And he can be kinda clueless as to considering other people, but really, many guys are. But, really, what is that in comparison to everything else? The way we just fit together...at least I think so. Sometimes, I think he's vital to my sanity. And therefore, I will wait. Why take the chance? I would love to have him as my boyfriend, but really I need him to be friend. If I screwed that up, I would never forgive myself.
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