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As I was laying down at the bottom of the pool,looking up at the life i was leaving.
The blue sky waved in the ripples of water.
I held to the side of the ladder at the bottom of the pool to keep from floating to the top.
This was it ,theres not a reason to live now .I just want to see what its like to die ,the effects of everyone else as I died.
I closed my eyes tightly,and sucked in the water ,and attempted to scream ,it would fill my lungs and bring me to my death.
Then it was all blank.
Dark.
I felt numb.
Like I was nothing at all.
Then as I stared into the darkness, then the sun burned my eyes,yet I didn't react.

I couldn't move.
I was laying on the grass,my father telling me to wake up as he cried.
I wanted to cry.
But I couldn't.
I wanted to spare them the pain ,but i couldn't.
I layed there and let them try to bring me back.
This must have been the pain of death,hearing your family in so much pain .
Feeling your heart run cold.
No blood rushing through your veins.
No senses other than sight and hearing .
As if watching yourself die,hearing your familys screams.
Feeling nothing.