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there is a side of me also. it tears at me to gain control. it is bound. i have lost control, for a brief moment, it made me feel more powerful, like i could enforce my will by whatever means. i was power hungry, i would easily kill. i saw it take over. it lasted for seconds, it scared the kids i was about to hit, it scared me more. its the longest id ever cried after that.. its the worst experience ive ever had. if i lose control, i can garuntee nothing, of that i am afraid

i want to be the one that acted on his beliefs, the one who loved for keeping love alive, i want to do things because i am the one who decided that i wanted to, i want to be the one that is there to catch a friend when they fall, to offer help to a friend in need, to provide a shelter when none is available, to always be myself no matter what is happening, and to never let myself change for anything, or anyone. i want to be totally seperate from anything that will ever try to bring me down. i do not want to be a part of anything against my beliefs, and i never want to attack others for theirs. i want to always question the truth in any thing, i need to challenge my beliefs. i want to be happy, not free of care, if anything i will be the most caring person in the world, but i will always be happy.

I twist my words into verse,
when in our love i again immerse,
and graceful choirs join to sing
of us, forever, unending.

Slightly echoes this refrain,
many troubles, paths are lain,
and still we get back to ourselves,
our souls we bargained, failed to sell.

This song of ours has many twists,
but we have each other, retain our bliss,
yet we think the ending to be sad,
with you till then, love be had.