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Then, either that night or in a nap, I had a dream.....
I was standing shirtless, looking at the beautiful, stary, night sky. There was a cold breeze that made my muscles shiver. I was looking a a huge pentagonal, star that was the color of blood. there was something silver dancing around the star.....it was.....a sword? flickering colors, from blue to red and then back to silver. I tryed to understand, I wanted to know.... the sword froze in the silver color, blade pointed down. It plummited downward. The sword pierced down, into my heart. I just stood there, I looked down at the sword in my chest and back up into the sky.

The star was still there, glowing in all it's glory. A sharp cold tookover my body, from my head to my tail. My eyes glazed over and I turned pale. I pulled out the sword and put it into the ground.

I didn't look the same, but more like a demon. A sideshow freak, infused with evil. I had pitch black wings and horns. my eyes were glazed over a pale white. my mane....all my fur had black hilights with my irregular white fur.

I took one more look at the blood red star, and walked down the hill and into the night.


It remains still a dream......I woke up sweating. I think I may have woken up Tiger, but he just rolled over in his sleep mumbling something about "the popcorn" I had no Idea what HE was dreaming....
I lay back and relaxed, I thought about Serena, and fell asleep.

So i landed in Boston, after a very long plane trip. I was met by an Army Humvee. I was still in my jacket and my flectarn(camo) pants and boots. I had my life in my hands, as I got into the hummer, I was given the situation.

I was told there might be crouds of people whom wouldn't like me. I put on a vest under my leather coat. Was America this dangerous? I was surrounded be the 7th cav troops, the same unit that I went to Iraq with....

When I got to the house there were no hostiles there, no riots, nothing. There was just a cozy neighborhood as we pulled into the driveway. I gave the vest back, as I didn't need it and i got out of the car.

I was very nervous, what if they didn't like me? What if they were mean? I only want to fit in. It has been so long since I have seen another anthro, not since the lab.....

I knocked at the door and I held my breath. The door was opened by a tiger. There was some kind of other feline in the room as well, a panther or a cougar?
I explained my situation. They showed me the house and where I would sleep. They said I was moving in and another was moving out....I hope I was not the cause of this.

I was very tired due to jet lag. The two others, tiger and Elina told me about the other anthros. I was very interested, even though I couldn't tell everything that they said. They told me, two houses, one for the men and one for the women.

I agreed I would room with Tiger because I knew him and he wasn't as hyper as the other option, kip er...... something/someone?

We went into the living room to watch tv. Elina and Tiger started to playfully fight/ spar. I moved all that was breakable and saw this moment as a chance to catch up on lost sleep.

When I awoke...the mood was different. The air reaked of hormones. I knew at that moment that they liked eachother so, I asked them why they had such huge grins on their faces. They told me some excuse.

I went to unpack my things, my life.

When I finished, I called to Tiger. I asked him how he felt about Elina. He wasn't sure. Then he told me that he was confused, but liked her. I told him to stop wasting time and tell her the truth.

I jumped on the bed but the springs threw me off and against the floor. I couldn't stop laughing, then I fell asleep.

Once i again woke up, I went into the livingroom. They shot me evil stares so I went to get some milk. I came in and they explained, They were together now.

There was a knock at the door....I wanted to leave the two alone so i got the door. In flew a female bird. She noted Tiger and Elina and then turned her attention to me. I explained myself. I went to the bathroom....when I came back She was sitting on my bed...

I sat down next to her and told her about the two in the other room....she laughed and started to ask about me. I told her everything I could, I've never been so open in my life. When I got to the lab tears swelled up in my eyes and i was yelling that I should have dies with my family.

Then she hugged me....she actually cared about me...I was blushing, then hugged her back.

We went into the living room and the bird, serena i think, invited me to dinner and a costume party. she left, and I had small talk with Elina and Tiger in the meantime.

The dinner was nice even though I don't like Italien....Then we watched a movie. I sat down next to serena. I fell asleep.

I woke up cuddling with serena. it was funny in all. I made breakfast for everyone. I felt odd, a puppy was staring at me. One by one they woke up to the smell of coffee and sausage.

I went to tha bathroom, my hair looked like the devil attacking.

I went back and talked to the others, I learned the puppy was a really hyper fox...oh well.

Elina gave me a comb for my unruly hair. When I left the bathroom I was greated by serena. Very loudly she said "good morning!" I fell down.

Breakfast went smoothly, I may go to the office of admin. today to change my major, untill then, i'm going to go for a run.......

crying Today i woke up for the first time in a month, alone and angry, I waited to regain my strength. Never in my life have i felt so betrayed, even as a child. I was betrayed by the country that I loved, the country that had hiven me my freedom, and taken it away before that.......

Lets start from the beginning......my parents and my brother and sister remember Africa.....I was too young. We were taken for experiments, rather tourture in the Fatherland. They did all kinds of experimentation, ranging from psychological to vivisection.....The pain...i will never forget. My parents and my bro and sis all perished down in that stupid lab....

One day i was liberated. The great German army uncovered their plans! It was all too late for my family, and I was alone. They made me a proposition....join their army and become a citizen of deuchland. I accepted.

When i went to training, I was physically the strongest there, and became the heavy gunner. I was a fair shot. I was promoted to squad leader. After the graduation, I was approached by an officer.

He offered me a chance to go for airborne and special operations, I took his offer. I can not talk about the next year and a half of my life untill classification clears and the files become public......needless to say I was changed into a killer.

The time came again and again to prove my worth in combat. Once the United States decided to go to war with Iraq with the help of the British, I volunteered to go.

The Brit Officers, didn't like me. They never have liked the anthro, and I wasn't a soldier to them, I was the enemy....

One night my team and I were returning from destroying SAMs(surface to air missles) we started taking fire. They layed down heavy supressing fire with a .50caliber machine gun.

All of a sudden, everything became blurry and it felt like the wind had been knocked out of me. My legs gave out and I fell to the ground.

I took a NATO .556 bullet to the upper chest and I was in a coma for about a month. During that time the German goverment and NATO did a full examination of the events. It was a bullet that came from an l85a1, the british assualt rifle.

After i awoke, they said that I should get an education from an american university. There were others like me there and i would be happy.

I cried the day that I left my country, that place that had taken me but liberated me many times over. I took off in a military carrier plane, probably never to return........