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ok so its another day in my life that seems to be a never ending mess of pain. I'm still singel. Don't know if that is a good thing or bad. i think its a bad thing. See there is this girl, don't know why i keep hideing names since no one reads this. So her name is erin. She's really nice and we get along great the bad thing is we get along so great that she thinks that if we date then it would go bad and we would never be friends. I really think it would work out. Its just each time we get close she backs off because it doesn't feel right. Well of course it doesn't feel right its something new. I've never told some one that i love them and ment it so much. I wish she could see her self through my eye's so she could understand what i feel.
She is so beautiful that i've meet anyone that looks better then her. I don't know why she says she is not beautiful when she is the cutiest girl i've ever meet. I just wish something would go right for a change. i've done just about everything i could think that would work and nothing has worked. My mind is raceing to a dead end and its the same place as its been for the past, stuck here in this hell whole with my hands tied. Of course she has a boyfriend and i'm still setting here with just my broken heart and stitchs.
Malfurion_Stormrage · Sun Aug 12, 2007 @ 06:44am · 0 Comments |
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OK back again. its defently been a while. Since then my life has been a big up hill battle in many ways. both at school and in relationships. Mainly relationships. there's been this girl ((i wounder how many times i've psot something long this topic)) and well i thought everything was going great, but then some bad happened and now i'm back to square one. stressed I feel really bad because i really hurt her, and got my self hurt too. I guess i deserved it this time. And now after i think i got everything fixed, i feel like just through in the tale and call it. But i don't know any more.
I don't know what to do anymore. crying
gonk Malfurion_Stormrage gonk
Malfurion_Stormrage · Sun Feb 04, 2007 @ 05:56pm · 0 Comments |
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Christmas was a bust. Nothing that i asked for was gotten, even the simpliest gifts. Grandma for example asked me what i want, i told her a gift card to wal-mart would be nice. ((thats what is ussaully every year.)) Nope a cheaply made dvd play is what i got. Great 4 one, i'm running out of palces for them. Clouths again. I did need some pants, but i have enought shirts OMG. You may say i'm being greedy here, but i did alot to get those gifts my mom and dad wanted. My mom need a new watch, so i tracked down the company that made this pooh watch that she has, but it was broke and i ordered a new one for her. ((my dad did the ordering)) then for my dad i drove all the way to greenwood just to get him a hat. NVM about all this. I'm bring down the mood.
My wish list ((given to my parents in october when they asked for it)) 1. new computer, Alienwarer area-51 2.xbox360, i don't care which one 3.OMG gaia hat 4.memory card for my mp3 player 5.W.O.W, if i got the computer
MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone
on a good note. My dad, the real one, actaully got my gift to me on time this year. He sent me a gift card for $100 for best buy and i get a reall cool shirt i like from my grandpa. I guess its the thought that counts.
Malfurion_Stormrage · Tue Dec 26, 2006 @ 12:27am · 0 Comments |
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Hey everyone!!! I've not posted on here in a while so i decided to post. I resently got my self a girlfriend. YAY for me. I really really REALLY do like her. heart we went on one date but now we are having problems planning the next one. One she is afreared of telling her dad that she has a boyfriend and two there really isn't stuff to do anymore because of them takking out the rec. senter. God i wish we had that back. All tho it would be closed right now. sad I hope we are abvle to go on another date soon.
that really all thats going on in my life right now. O there is the facted that our band (Avon marching black&gold) is at BOA tomorrow and they get most of the day off so that there news. And in more news, there is the possiblity that Bass Clarinets would be able to march next year beacuse all the other bands at state finals had them too. So i'm happy about that. Also me and my girlfriend our in teh same pep band for pep band this year.YAY blaugh
Well thats really all thats new here. good night people!!!!
Malfurion_Stormrage · Fri Nov 10, 2006 @ 12:10am · 1 Comments |
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y=yes, n=no, blank = no reply Would you? Will you?
[_] give me your number? (_ _ _) _ _ _- _ _ _ _
[_] give me your screenname? __________________
[_] kiss me?
[_] let me kiss you?
[_] watch a movie with me?
[_] go to dinner with me?
[_] let me drive you somewhere?
[_] take a shower with me?
[_] buy me a drink?
[_] take me home for the night?
[_] let me sleep in your bed?
[_] Sing car karaoke w/ me?
[_] re-post this for me to answer your questions?
[_] Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
[_] let me make you breakfast?
[_] help me with homework?
[_] tickle me?
[_] let me tickle you?
[_of course] stick up for me if i was being put down?
[_] instant message me?
[_] greet me in public?
[_] hang out with me?
[_] bring me around your friends?
D0 Y0U...
[_] think im hott?
[_] think im cute?
[_] want to kiss me?
[_] want to hook up with me?
[_] want to be my bf/gf?
AM I...
[_] smart?
[_] SEXI?
[_] funny?
[_] cool?
[_] loveable?
[_] adorable?
[_] great to be with?
[_] attractive?
[_] mean?
HAVE Y0U EVER...
[_] thought about hooking up with me?
[_] found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
[_ wished I were there?
[_] had a crush on me?
[_] wanted my number?
[_] had a dream about me?
ARE Y0U... [_] happy you know me?
[_] thinking about me?
[_] interested in dating me?
[_] going to repost this
Malfurion_Stormrage · Sat Oct 21, 2006 @ 04:32pm · 0 Comments |
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ok so there is a lot that is going on lately around here. Not much that would mean the end of the world, but a lot of stuiped stuff. Ok like today, i showed up to school about an hour later, Doctur opintment. And of course like every one else in the state we are doing ISTEP. With me being late and my class already started i thought they would jsut tell me to go in once they where done with that test. O HELL no. I have to sit in the office and wait until they are completly done, yeah i said completly done. So after they got done, they go ahead and tell me that they will have to call me adn tell me when i can make up the test. Now we alos have this thing called 6th perode, its like an extra class that you can take at your own free will. I asked "Can't i jsut make up my test in 6th?" Answer *drumroll* NO, it seems that there is a big to do about the test.
((i'll put more on here later))
Malfurion_Stormrage · Wed Sep 20, 2006 @ 07:50pm · 2 Comments |
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ok so things have been on here. My mom has had her thing about the hospitle. i'm sure i told you all now. things are deffenetly abck to normal. My mom and dad where fighting last night, or atless yelling at one another. Yeah she is abck to her normal, but she is really weak right now and still needs to get her sleep.
im doing ok. i've had a bad couple of days. First my mom went to the hospitle and i didn't knwo until i get up and my dad told me. then that night my gf broke up with me. Then my mom land back in the hospilte last night, that was not fun.
I know this is going on and i know people are very touchy right now. But i think some people are being to touchy. People are stepping on one another toes and no one is likeing it. Take today for example, My friend Ryan was playing a joke and it made Erica mad because Ryan was telling chibi a sercret that she ahd told him not to tell any one. It was a joke but when erica got mad because she believed that Ryan had told teh sercert. Now i know it was a joke and Ryan most ahve not thoguht about what would happen when he did it. (I've done that before done something in a joking maner and made some one mad)
it was weird, Ryan got made and went off about the drama, kelsey joined in which she had alright to do and she did a good job of controlling her feelings and words. things could have turned out worest then what they happened. Now i can understand why everyone is acting the way they are. Everyone is tired and need a break for the normal life. this is why i believe in going out and having fun. Everyone needs to take a step back and look at the damge of what has happened. People are no longer friends.
I'm one that i really just keep drama at a low and sleep it off.
I THINK WE NEED A MORAL BOOST!!!!!!
Malfurion_Stormrage · Tue Sep 12, 2006 @ 11:15pm · 1 Comments |
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Monday blues, tuseday Jazz
back again and with bad news. Ok this is day 4 of school and day 4 of band. Now many will tell you that band is not fun but i feel that many have these year a chance yet. I'm going in with an open mind. So let me tell my tale of how i feel.
Day 3 was not a pleasent day , but it started like all the days had so fare. Get to band and pull out my instreament. I play bass clarinet and so does one of my best friends. We have the same band period, her name is Rose. Rose and i complanned as we put them together and get to the main room and get ready for the day. After class ahd started teh teacher started to talk about our requariments for this year. Now for teh past 2 years i've had some easy stuff to do. Must be able to paly this, must be able to do that. But no this year we got *pause for drama* the bad news.
We where told that we will be playing clarinet music and learning the special figerings for high notes. Now lets starte with special fingerings. I knbow some of them but i have not tried to paly them because i fare of self humilation, but never the less i know some of them. Now the music, this one get me. We are Bass clarinets but be told to do clarinet music. Now you would believe with the name bass clarinet our music would be some what the same. Well it is but must of the time our music matchs that of the barriy sax and toba. this year our band teacher, the dreaded Mr. Webb, has decided to make us play clarinet music. Now i did not pick this instreament to paly some other instreaments part. And if iwas a clarinet player and heared this i would be mad. Because that means he already believes that they need help to do there job.
I'm a team player but i don't like it when i get people ordered to help, by a teacher. This is turning out to be my friends lost in her own ablities. I don't know what happened for sure. I was there but i think she got her toes stepped on as a player of the bass clarinet. Mr. Webb does not starte teh year with basses. He ussaully wokrs with people then pickes who he wants on bass. But this year he has me and her. We are both well know and have proven our selves time and time again to be the best.
this year started good. For the first time i actually have some on to play againest that i consider to be a accpetable oppenite in the race for first chair. I've sat first chair for two years with no one to challenge me for my position. Now with my friend, Rose, considering to quite. i really hope that she would not quite. I've always wanted to paly with some one that i could concider to be a very good teammate. Our threed person is there because he join last year and Mr.Webb missed him on the first day to tell him he couldn't play bass. I feel that he would lose this position after our first test because of his lack of ability to stay focused and practice. Never mind him.
I feel that for the begainning of the year everyone should go to class with an open mind whne it comes to there teachers. That is what they do, we should return the favor. For if we quite now no one will know what comes tomorrow and for all we know tomorrow maybe the best day of your life or one of the best days of your life.
Now today was a good day. Our teacher, Mr. Webb was a bit more lively which i found to be funny and so did many people. I think we maybe rubbing off on him already. But Rose was not happy. She may not admit it but i could see it in her eyes her saddness, her anger, and her depression. I wish she would give the pour guy a chance i know i am. If im going to be in band i might as well try to get to know him and give him the beifit of a douth, like i do to many and all of my friends.
There is not much to be said now on this subject. We did get a lexcher from Mr.Webb, whihc i found that he was hitting all his points and made them clear to us. So this is what i have to say: Open your mind and close your mouth.
Monday blues, tuseday jazz
Eddie
Malfurion_Stormrage · Tue Aug 22, 2006 @ 11:25pm · 1 Comments |
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Back again.......
things are not good here im my camp. last night was the first football game of the year. Now i was post to meet my gf there. when i got there i could not find her. After half time i found her. then it went down hill from there. She acted like i was not even there. i enterduced her to my friends, it was the nice thing to do. She did not return the favor. Then she ran off to find some other guy. gonk gonk gonk
Sorry but i'm not doing these again. i did it with cyndi, and im not doing it ******** again. i wasted a year and a half datting her off and on. So i've made the decisson to break up with my girlfriend that i have right now. If she is going to treat me like im nothing, then there is nothing between us. cry cry cry
comment on this please........ sad
Malfurion_Stormrage · Sat Aug 19, 2006 @ 06:54pm · 2 Comments |
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