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You know....my life has been up and down for a long time. ANd by lookign at me you cant tell. I guess thi scan be said by alot of people.Beofre i get into what happeend today. Ill say my grandfather is a control freak with deep routed problems,my mother is seen as scitzophrenic and she also has borderline Personality Disorder, and my grandmother is old and crabby and trys to do antything she thinks will make her feel valuable to our family. She feels weak...and she is weak....All three constantly bicker.Now by now you probably think this is goign to be a entry thats all negative and how bad life is but your wrong.

Life is...hard....it can be beter and it can be worse.Some peole die with regrets and sometimes they die alone and sad. This is inevitable and if you belive in that whoel spiritual thing of reincarnation then well.....anything is possible. But im going off the subject.

Today i was sick but i pushed on through school....had to sneak through th ecellar to get into my own house. I was relaxing tlaking to people ont he comouter and then all of the sudden my friends coem and invite me to walk down to Burger King. Theyve never done that before. Anyway, when we were about to go down they asked me where my bike was and i said "i dont have one" and "i dont know how to ride either". butg they didnt leave and ditch me saying 'oh nevermidn then cya tomarrow' they said 'ok we will go slow for you' but i told them no id keep up and i did. Heh when we were leaving though someone beeped us and i yelled otu ******** you and flicked the finger. They turned aroudn and came back. And my other Dan was on his cell phone tring to reach my friend Jake who had rode ahead of us with ym other friend Jeff. Well anyway Grant who was the last person who came with us, had hsi cell and i pushed the 911 button on hsi cell and showed ti to them and they freaked otu and drove off. good times.

Anyway we eventually got to Burgerking and we had somefun there. Dan and i won free whooper Juniors from that coin game they have there. Then it was tiem to leave.....and everyone said they wouldnt leave until they made sure i had a ride. This is where things got bd.....my grandfather picked me up and argued for most of the way home...Thats when i said hwo much i appreciated him an dthansk for picking me up blah blah you get the idea.

When i got upstairs i said "perfect end to a perfect day" and i shouldnt have said that. My mother atfirst came out and talked to me about the bible and everything. In the middle of that, my grandfather came down and asked for a check from my mother. She said that she wanted to wait until 2 days latter so she could check her fudns and he flipped. They jsut went at it with eachother....and then i left. Went downstairs to wait it out. My grandfather always threatens to disown all of us and if he did that wed all fall apart. So i go upstairs.....after thing shoudl ahve settled down.....and i go upstais to tell my grandfather i want to talk to soem threapist..... And then another argument explodes..i cant help crying...i cant stop it. It just always happens to me....but thats beside the point.

After another talk with my mother....i realized soemthing....life is bad but....its good too. You learn from everything that happens in your life. Everyones still miserable and they probably will be miserable for a long tiem. But it ends for all. Everyone is only trying to find their way......thats all and nothing more. We must all find a road we must follow byourslevs. So for now i will say.....this day has been perfect.