well, everyone tends to tell me im beautiful, im an amazing friend, a great person. that im skinny, and fun to be around.. i dont let it show that i think the exact opposite.. I hate my body.. i wish i had a models figure.. i have major depression with makes me a complete b***h sometimes.. im very violent and rude when it comes down to it and have even lost many friends.. i know im smart, but i dont believe im smart enough to be in a big time college like i want to be. i dont think ill get very far in my career, because no one in my family has. i tend to over think things and analyze them as "what if i were never born" or "what if i just died."i wish to be perfect alot of times.. i hate making mistakes, i hate hurting people, i hate not knowing what to do or what to say. This is the 2nd and final time i have fallen in love, and im afraid im gonna lose her.. im very controlling, very jealous, and very possessive, i just want a chance to have everything perfect.. i dont want to follow my moms footsteps.. i dont want to become nothing but another pointless human. i want to make a difference in peoples lives. i want to be someone.
-Veronicka
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