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Off White
Wedding

The white, now
Blood red
Her dreams crash
To an End
The dress, now
Stained
Forever changed
No way to hide it
Disappointment
Looks that seem to say
YOU are a Failure
No matter how scorching the water
The sin will not cease to exist
Yet somehow she feels the same
But now the Tainted and Unwanted
Feelings are added
During the sermon
She feels the need to
Scream, to Yell, to Cry
Little does she know her true feelings inside
Suppressing them pushing them farther and farther away
And she YELLS,
She can’t take it anymore
She can’t push them away
Thrown to the floor
Flailing her arms she can’t stop screaming
The harder she tries to tell them,
the ones that she loves, the louder she screams
They ask her what is wrong over and over,
But little do they know the Pain she feels the feelings she hides
THE PAIN INSIDE
They ask her again and again
In a moment she’s wild in the next
STILL
Everyone is panicking now
Paster calls 911
It seems like forever then finally they’re here
They are on there way by now
To resuscitate they try and they try
But they fail and they fail
They stop trying
They’re giving up hope
The pronounce the TOD
Then they hear it
The steady beating of the heart on the monitor
Then they see her chest rising and falling
Days later she wakes
Wakes with a calm
Yet somehow she knows something is wrong
Looked at with understanding
She finds herself wondering if anything was said while she was heavily slumbering
She called for Paster
He walks in slowly and he tells her
Tells her of the last time they spoke
The last time she woke she called out for him
He came and he waited
Waited for what was to be confided on him
He waited patiently for the tale to begin
He listened with understanding
She was done and she said
Tell my parents and the others I love
I’ll call you later Paster
And wait for your return

She must have been in a conscious slumber

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