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WOO it's been a while since I updated here. There's a lot to report about my life since last year, but I simply don't want to recap. It's mostly bad stuff. D:

Shop's open~ I have comics~ I'm gonna be a senior. :3

YESSSS I finally finished my auction commission. I'll open the shop shortly, but I must first finish my APSA homework. @_@

I thought the Ricky thing was over. I had gotten over it, decided that I hated him, and was about to move on when I get a cute apology and another slight hope that things will work out. DDDx God, I hate this. Why is it that I hate him one day and adore him the next?

Ah, so back to the shop. I'm currently reserving a couple of spots for people, but it's not an absolute reserve, ya? I've been asked to do a couple of breedable pets, which is cool. I might just add that as a feature to my shop? *hmmmm* If you're in favor of a breedable pets section in my art shop, please let me know. biggrin

Today, I feel utterly confused and slightly angry.

Ok, so here's some background story: Once upon a time in 6th grade, I was "going out" with a guy named Will. Well, Will was an a**, and we never did anything. Infact, the instant we "got together", he almost completely ignored me. DDDx Will had a best friend named Ricky, who was annoying at times, but I secretly liked him a little. I left that school by the start of 7th grade, and even though I tried to stay in touch, we didn't. Ricky was the only person who I kept in contact with until highschool.

Until things happened. DDDx He changed. DRAMATICALLY by the end of Freshman year, and he didn't talk to me anymore. That is. UNTIL TODAY. @_@

Today: Cecilia came with me on the first bus, but she went home while I took the 2nd bus. I was just passing by the bowling alley when I thought... maybe I could play some DDR! But the bus started moving, and I'm like whatever I'll just go home. Then it comes to the next stop, about 2 blocks farther, and I'm thinking.... AW screw it, and got off the bus. Got inside the bowling alley, went to make change of my dollar when this guy taps me on the shoulder and asks if my name is Alex. o_o Oh snap it's freaking Ricky. Part of me was glad to see him, but the other part was screaming AHHHHHH YOU b*****d WHY ARE YOU BACK AGAIN!?!?!?!?! (Eheh, I had just gotten over my phase of obsessing over past friends last year...) So he was cool, I guess. We hugged, we talked a little. I had to wait a while for him to finish his bowling game, so I went broke playing DDR. I only had 3 dollars, but some nice guys let me play with them because I let them use my free versus with no charge option. biggrin

ANYWAY. Ricky finished his game and gave me a ride to the school behind Venice high. He even walked me down the block and told me to check back at the bowling alley on Wednesdays and Thursdays, because that's when he bowls with his friends.

Now: AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #*%&^#&*$^&*#$^#&*.

%^&*!!!

Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy? DDDx I'd better not get desperate or depressed again. Because that's not fun. One minute I'm convinced he's the sweet guy I knew between 6th and 9th grade, the next I'm thinking he's a jerk for showing up again, getting my hopes up that we'll stay in touch, and then ignore me again.

THIS IS A LONG RANT. I end here.

I feel like I'm failing AP Studio Art. Mr. Jones does not like me.

I've been trying to submit more art to the arena, but it takes FOREVER to accept. I think I've been waiting several weeks. >_< I remember my first submissions only took a couple of days. What's up, man?!

I have to research art competitions and portfolio day. I really need to get into this stuff before it's too late!

gonk gonk gonk
BUSY. BUSY. HOLY s**t AM I BUSY.

Tonight I go to Figure Drawing class from 7 to 10. I have to do all my homework between now and 7. That's a little less than 2 hours. Actually, less than 1 and a half hours... need time to get there...

Our group costumes for Anime Expo '08 have been decided..... Ouran Host Club. I am Hikaru. My friend Sabrina and I have started learning to sync our speech. DOUCHIGA HIKARU-KUN DESHOUKA GA~AME!

Must study History now. Buh bye~

YAY finally a new journal entry. I neglect this one because I have an LJ and a dA journal...... it's kind of pointless to point 3 of the same entries everywhere. xDDD

So anyway, Cecilia has gotten me hooked on Ouran Host Club~ Last episode comes out soon........ I will miss it.


IN OTHER NEWS. A while ago my friends and I were discussing stuff about our school and practically all schools... most everyone does drugs, or drinks, or has already lost their virginity. And then I realized... our group is the straight edge of the school. sweatdrop No, seriously. I'm pretty certain that none of us have had sex, gotten drunk, or done drugs. Only the cool kids are that disciplined! ^^; Eheheh... or is it naive? Well, ignorance was bliss until I realized that the girls who seem normal that I see every day are doing some less than moral things... and I'm not even Catholic (it's a Catholic school, btw. An all girl catholic school. @_@)

So I don't know... would I do those things if I had the chance? I might never know. And I know that a lot of people will think it's sad that I'v had no fun at all even though I'm 16, but I've been pretty happy just being with my friends. I think that even though we might not be the most affectionate people, our bond is on a higher level than those groups that drink and do drugs and whatnot together. The only downside is that after highschool, we won't be a group anymore, and we'll have no idea how to merge with a far more jaded society. sad

Well, it's my first journal entry of the school year. >_< Damn it. Too bad, I really cannot draw in ANY of my classes. The main reason is that the teachers are ALWAYS watching. Except in math, where I'm way in the back. But I really need to pay attention because math is hard for me. Dx

Commissions are coming along. Slowly. I have a bunch of homework, and that's my priority.

I AM SCARED TO DEATH OF SATURDAY. All Saturdays from now until the SATs. The scary Korean teachers will belittle me. I will feel even more belittled by the scary Korean geniuses. crying

sweatdrop I should really. REALLY. start on my english essay. School starts next week. I go to school to set up my locker this Thursday. NOOOOOOO this year will be so bad. @_@

My art shop is moderately popular. I used to get about 5 orders every day! Now it's like 5 orders a week. Which is kind of nice, since I didn't have time to draw stuff for myself before, and like I said... english essay. *dies* By Thursday! I will finished by Thursday!!!

So I'm saving up my money for a Meryl Strife costume. YAY Clare and I are gonna be the Trigun insurance girls~! I have to ask her what her gaia name is so I can help her out... it's no fun being poor. sad

I had a huge headache yesterday. Like, ridiculously huge. I get frequent, painful headaches (not migraines, I don't think...) that ruin my entire day. The headache of yesterday was basically an all out attack on my left brain. The LOGICAL side. That's right, my brain knows whichs part of my brain is valuable. The RIGHT side. xD

Bleh. I am so sick of my mother........

Ok, so here's the deal: I love drawing. Realism is fine, but it's kind of boring. I find anime and cartoonish things more fun, follow me? Well my mom seems bent of destroying it for me. Seriously, I could be drawing for 2 seconds, and if she catches me drawing a large caucassian eye she either lectures me on how drawing is a waste of time, or just stares in silence with either a sigh or roll of the eyes. @_@;;;

My dad isn't so bad, he only tells me to stop drawing when I've been stuck in my room for hours. But really, drawing is all I have. I'm smart, but I'm horrible in school. I'm not athletic, I'm no asian genius... drawing is all I have, and she's trying to take that away from me.

Gah, and I know I won't get any comments, but in case there are...... don't you dare side with her cause I don't think I could handle it right now. GRRRRR angry drawings. That's what I'll produce. I guess I could always just ermember what my friend Christy said to me: "Well, just keep drawing and one day when you're rich and famous and buy your mother a house, you can say HA." AHAHAHA. @_@