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Well this Sunday I came back from visiting my mother for a week in Montana. Sunday was if not the most, its One of the most romantic days of my life. When I landed at sea-tac airport i called my baby, and he was waiting for me out side of my gate ( may i say the wrong gate, But still !!! its the thought that counts) And so We said we would meet at the baggage claim. I saw him when i was going down the escalator, and then he saw me and ran down to me and gave me the biggest warmest hug and kiss. we held hands till i got my bags and headed back to the car. Chris gave me my new phone which he got for me. and we started to head home but we stopped and had breakfast at Denny's. After breakfast we made it home, only to make love to each other ^.^ heart then we fell asleep in each others arms. we woke up later and had dinner, then went to the movies and after the movies it was raining outside but the sunset was so beautiful that we sat out in the rain ( me on his lap with his arms wrapped around me) and we watched the sunset. then we came home and slept cuddling each other xp heart
now... isn't that romantic??? hmmmm 3nodding 4laugh
I love you baby!
country_angel · Wed Jun 27, 2007 @ 01:20am · 0 Comments |
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Life Sucks.... then you die domokun
country_angel · Thu Jun 14, 2007 @ 10:54am · 0 Comments |
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Well Its certainly been a long time since I've posted in my journal. I kinda miss typing in here, but when I think about all the grief its caused me in the past, I'm tempted just to stay out of my journal.
A lot has happened since I last posted. For one, I moved out of my parents house, and moved in with my boyfriend. I'm glad I made the move, because I now can be in the arms of the one I love most dear. Though we have had our hard times in the past, and more to come, I know I can say that I honestly hope we stay together forever. Chris means and is the world to me. I don't think I could be with out him. I don't know of any other way to put it, because its just plain and simple, I love him. I would marry him right now if I could.
I now have a job, not much but at least its money. I work at Wendy's, and I don't really hate it so far. I got to learn front counter today, which I liked and thought it was fun. Chris works there too, but we don't have the same schedules. I work mornings and he works nights, it kinda sucks but we still get to spend time with each other. Before I was just put on fryer, but now that I got the hang of it Ray ( our manager) is training me in different areas and also giving me more hours. Which I know, Chris and I both are happy about. And I also keep getting complements from the other workers/customers. I hope they are meaning what they say, and not just saying things because its my first job.
I have been home sick lately, but then, I realize its just my mom, and sister/niece that I miss the most. I could live with out my dad. In fact when he comes to visit sometimes its VERY awkward. I know my mother isn't happy there by her self either. My sister just had a baby boy, they named him Joe Robert Davis. I really haven't seen him besides just a picture that they took at the hospital. but yeah.
gonk Its almost V-day, and I don't really know what to get Chris. Though I have a few things in mind, I just need to scrounge up the money is all. Hopefully this paycheck I can nab ten bucks or something. Though this isn't our first v-day since we've been dating, it IS our first v-day TOGETHER. So yeah.
But! I do however have to go, I have to finish cleaning and stuff before my baby comes home. So I will update you all more when I can
heart Angel
country_angel · Wed Jan 31, 2007 @ 08:31am · 1 Comments |
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The mean Test.... DUN DUN DUN!!! -78 |
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Are you mean enough?
1 ) smoked weed or cigs: no 2 ) consumed alcohol: yes 3 ) slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex: yes 4 ) slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex : yes 5 ) made out with someone of the opposite sex: yes 6 ) made out with someone of the same sex: yes 7 ) had someone in your room of the opposite sex: yes 8 ) watched porn: yes 9 ) bought porn: yes 10 ) done drugs: no TOTAL: 9
11 ) taken pain killers: yes 12 ) taken someone elses prescription medicine: yes 13 ) lied to your parents: yes 14 ) lied to a friend: yes 15 ) snuck out of the house: yes 16 ) done something illegal: yes 17 ) cut yourself: yes 18 ) hurt someone: yes 19 ) wished someone to die: yes 20 ) seen someone die: no TOTAL: 9
21 ) missed curfew: yes 22 ) stayed out all night: yes 23 ) eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself: yes 24 ) been to a therapist: no 25 ) been to rehab: no 26 ) dyed your hair: yes 27 ) recieved a ticket: no 28 ) been in a wreck: yes 29 ) been to a club: yes 30 ) one night stand: no TOTAL: 7
31 ) been to a wild party: yes 32 ) seen the Mardi Gras: no 34 ) had a summer break in Florida: no 35 ) sniffed anything: no 36 ) wore black nail polish: yes 37 ) wore arm bands: yes 38 ) wore t-shirts with band names: yes 39 ) listened to rap: yes 40 ) own a 50 cent cd: yes
TOTAL: 6
41 ) dressed gothic: yes 42 ) dressed prep: yes 43 ) dressed punk: yes 44 ) dressed grunge: yes 45 ) stole something: yes 46 ) been too drunk to remember anything: no 47 ) blacked out: no 48 ) fainted: no 49 ) had a crush on your neighbor: yes 50 ) had someone sneak into your room: yes TOTAL: 7
51 ) snuck into someone else's room: yes 52 ) had a crush on someone of the same sex: yes 53 ) been to a concert: yes 54 ) dry humped someone: yes 55 ) been called a slut: yes 56 ) called someone a slut: yes 57 ) installed speakers in your car: no 58 ) broke a mirror: yes 59 ) showered at someone of the opposites sex's house: yes 60 ) brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush: no TOTAL: 8
61 ) consider ludacris your favorite rapper: no 62 ) seen an R rated movie in theaters: yes 63 ) cruised the mall: yes 64 ) skipped school: yes 65 ) had an eating disorder: yes 66 ) had an injury: yes 67 ) gone to court: no 68 ) walked out of a restaurant without paying: no 69 ) caught something on fire: yes 70 ) lied about your age: yes TOTAL: 7
71 ) owned an apartment: no 72 ) cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend: yes (phone sex) 73 ) been cheated on: yes 74 ) got in trouble with the police: no 75 ) talked to a stranger: yes 76 ) hugged a stranger: no 77 ) kissed a stranger: no 78 ) rode in the car with a stranger: yes 79 ) been sexually harrassed: yes 80 ) been verbally harrassed: yes TOTAL: 6
81 ) met face to face with someone you met online: yes 82 ) stayed online for 12 hours straight: yes 83 ) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours straight: yes 84 ) watched tv for 12 hours straight: no 85 ) been to a fair: yes 86 ) been called a bad influence: yes 87 ) cursed: yes 88 ) prank called someone: yes 89 ) laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex: yes 90 ) cheated on a test: yes TOTAL: 9
91 ) cheated on homework: yes 92 ) recieved/given a handjob: yes 93 ) been pushed into a pool: yes 94 ) played pool: yes 95 ) watched 5 hours of mtv straight: yes 96 ) had a crush on someone 10 years older than you: yes 97 ) had a crush on someone younger: yes 98 ) wear eyeliner: yes 99 ) skinny dipped: yes 100 ) laughed at someone who was seriously hurt: yes TOTAL: 10
My total: 78
10-20= goodie too shoes 21-30= a tad rebelious 31-40= GETTING HOT BABY 41-50= Rebel baby 51-60= total bad girl/boy 61-70= such a b***h 71-80= cant believe you made it this far 81-90= TOTAL! bad a** 91-100= see you in hell twisted twisted
country_angel · Fri Aug 11, 2006 @ 04:46am · 1 Comments |
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Emo journal... so don't read cuz its just depressed crap |
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so much s**t has happend to day ._. i just don't know what to do anymore.... i wish i could just erase today completly... emo
i woke up to my mom bitching about how much i suck at life and need to do all this s**t.... and then she was complaining that i had staied up late .... honestly why does it matter? im not disturbing her or both of them im not making s**t loads of noise.. i havn't done anything seriously wrong but yet i feel like im the worst child in the world. i mean honestly i don't go out and party and drink and do crap loads of drugs.. i mean for gods sakes im more responsible then my own goddamned sister! ( which she is older by the way.. shes 35) so then my dad came home early from work and was yelling at me about staying up as well i can't sleep because i've had so much s**t on my mind so i sit here stairing out my window its like i can't even be awake with out their permission is really ******** pissing me off an no matter what i say they wont change.... and top of that.. my physc teacher thinks im scared to move away from home... but im not i was going to take a summer job ....house sitting for one of her friends... and then my mom kept bitching at me about how i wouldn't be able to keep the house clean or even keep the things straight n crap so i said ******** it and turned her down.... not only do i have peers teling me a suck its my parents and ex teachers as well....
-sigh- and then David was talking to me and i resonded with "uh huh" cuz i was agreeing with him... and he blew up in my face...i didn't say anything other than that
i want to call chris and talk to him but if i do im sure he will get tired of me calling him crying about how my life sucks i mean i know we are friends but i depend on people to much
and to make things wrose i duno... Neo blah ._.; he said he needs time away from things so he can set himself straight... i asked him what about us? and i uno i don't even think he knows.... but hes gone now... i hope things work out alright for him... hes got more on his plate than i do... and my problems are stupid... But i care about him and am worried about him... sad
******** im so tired of being plaied with. im so tired of being used... im tired of everything i mean hell Jake and i don't even talk anymore since he has his new gf.... and i miss him we can't even talk for about 15 mins with out her getting pissy....
right about now i want to crawl into a tiny hole and cry till i sleep ... hopefully not to wake up any time soon.... they say your teen years are the best... and honestly the way i feel right now.... about my teen years... i don't know if i want to see other years to come...
now please excuse my emo journal i know it seems like im making big deals out of small thigns but damn i just don't have anyone anymore... my family..friends and even just people that i know all turn against me to make me out to be the worst person ever... why? what the hell have i done so much to piss everyone off.. i don't ask for much... i just want to be loved and cared about... for real... not just someone saying thigns so they can get into my goddamned pants or so they can just ******** use me in any way possible....
even my own niece and nephew don't want to be around me anymore sad i practically had to force Jeralyn to give me a hug sad
gonk sad cry merf doesn't matter .__.; i don't matter so good bye all.... i hope your life is awsome.
country_angel · Thu Jun 22, 2006 @ 11:34pm · 2 Comments |
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Angel feels like smashing her head up against a wall for a while.... sweatdrop good news though =D Im dating neogothpunkxxx and yeah razz hes my fiance now... heart woo ^-^
ya an i don't get to walk across the stage with my class.... because i failed math by 4 % stare but yeah and i guess im kinad depressed latly because of that and on top of that my friends will be moving away and all that jazz ._.;;; it sucks monkey balls....
BUT! in augest im planning to go down to cali or even before that ... for neos reunion heart ^-^ so yeah that should be fun ... and as he says... he is going to kidnap me and let me live in his closet xd hehe heart
and starting the summer off im going to be so godamned busy....
First do credit retreval and get my credit so i can get my diploma... then not too long after that i go camping with my friends... and on the same day we are planning to leave to go camping is the day my niece and nephew are going ot be here, so they get to see me when i come back ^_^ hehe heart i miss those little buggers and they have grown so much gonk crying it makes me sad that i can't be there when they are growing up talk2hand and then a couple of days after that my aunt should be here and shes taking me away to WA for like a week or two... and while im there im hopeing on surprizing Chris, xp but yeah ... don't think he would want to see me that much anymore... especially since he is now interested in another girl and all that jazz.... i hope things work out for him ^_^ heart and then im coming back to MT.... looking for a job to get money to be able to go to cali 3nodding and then probably go back to WA a couple of times and i HAVE to spend crap loads of time with my little rugrats ( niece and nephew) because yeah.... i want them to stay little but they wont forever.... -sigh- but yeah =D i think thats an okay rant for now so tlak to jooz later xd
country_angel · Sat May 27, 2006 @ 06:10am · 0 Comments |
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Turning corners- By ravens rants <3 |
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Turning Corners
I can't escape you no matter how many times I turn around I see you there looking back at me your beautiful face too tempting to resist your smile too wonderful to deny
Not a day goes by that you don't cross my mind Try as I might to shut you out I'm powerless against the stray thoughts that wonder in when my mind is quiet or my heart is in need of a smile
I need to forget you I need to find a different path but you made me so happy and loved me so openly that I can never forget what we shared Even as the years push us apart and time fades those joyful memories I feel drawn to you lost in you and hopelessly entranced by you
I hope you find your happiness even in the arms of another No matter if the vision destroys me slowly I know you deserve something more than an absentee lover waiting to take you home
Just know that around every corner I turn I will see you looking back Your face both beautiful and haunting a welcome image of a broken heart
I cherish our memories and wish things could be different but no matter how much I love you I can never change what is what was or what has to be
So find your peace and enjoy your life without me But promise you'll think of me on those still nights when I'm turning corners in my mind and staring deep into your loving eyes but missing your gentle touch or heartfelt words
Give me thoughts of warmth to let this shivering soul have some peace don't let me slip into cold oblivion and let me remember when you were mine when life was easier and nothing more need be said
country_angel · Tue Apr 18, 2006 @ 10:04pm · 0 Comments |
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roar ness O_O blabbling :3 |
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HOKAY! so just random babbling entry ... why =D? CUZ I CAN whee
okay! so first im almost done with Mary Mary, i thought it was going ot be a good book , and so far it has been... buuuuuuuuuuut these last few pages have really kinda pissed me off o.O; and to top it off, the main character and his girlfriend broke up, i was so sad. :glare: stupid JAMM. but now hes dating again O.o; which is kinda weird >>; specially fro cross, cuz he usualy doesn't go from women to women... but hes starting too.
ANNNNNNNNND its almost easter sad ... this is like the first year ever not going up to washington for easter... and it really sucks ._.; even though Chris and I arn't dating anymore.. i still wish i could have gone and seen him.... im still planning on going and seeing him though, sometime during the summer... just got to get enough money and find out if i get my moms car or not hehe heart whee but yeah.... mrgreen
yes.. chris and i arn't dating anymore *sigh* ... He said that he doesn't want a long distance relationship anymore.. which i don't blame him but still it was just going to be a couple of months before i could come visit him for a while... but he made up his mind... and now also his other ex and him seem to be talking more now... and i know its not my place to say anything about it.. but honestly... i don't want to lose him, ( omg that sounds like >>; im the gf that doesn't get over a break up and stalks him ><: ahhhh) but thats not how it is.. i mean i hope that we can get back together when i get up to washington... cuz im still planning to go... and yeah... anyways going to stop talking about that >>; cuz i just sound more like a stalker or mental person now >>; and thats not good..
I've been packing some more stuff, so far i have dishes, books, more books, text books xD LOL insain i know... and im thinking about packing important papers that i wanted to keep.... but don't know if i want to do that yet or not... i even have all my dvds put together instead of scattered around my room like usual. yes im a messy person >>; but i find that if things are scattered i can find them more easily... and if i put things away like well organized to the point of spotless ness... >> i can't find a damn thing lol now when i say messy i don't mean like.. can't see the floor stumble over everything x.X thats just disturbing ..
hmmmm lets see what else to ramble about... O YES! i miss my niece and nephew so bad O_O they arn't going to be my little babies soon anymore crying and if i don't get that giant jump/ hug from roamy anymore i think im going to cry... cuz that is the best thing in the world , when being away from him so long, and he can't wait to jump out of the car run and jump and hug me first.... i love him to death even though he can be a little s**t.... and Lynny is growing up as well sad this is her first year of school... i wonder how much shes going to have changed when i see her this summer last time i remember her she was this short little girl with long blond hair xd and she stuttered when she got excited xd it was cute... but she cut her hair short sad like to her ears x.x; i loved her long hair sad but yeah.
GRADUATION is in like 25 days boo ya -dances- i can't wait... bonnie boo is going to grad a day before me though stare but hey thats cool though, cuz then she can come to my graduation ^.^; i want to go to hers though, but i havn't told her that yet.... *sigh* we were supposed to graduate from the same schol, always be friends , live together and that whole bit.. but then her parents divorced and she moved out with her dad sad grrr i realize that so many things arn't going as planned latly and its making me feel rather helpless.... like i can't control or help anything... just to let everything play out... but still sweatdrop
hmm i think thats enough random rambling don't you?
country_angel · Sat Apr 15, 2006 @ 05:46am · 0 Comments |
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okay so this is a work in progress... i want to write it down before i forget whats on my mind ... as the words flow to me
My Last Chance
Little did you know you were my last chance at hope
Hopeing that i was good enough I tried my best Even told you that i loved you
Foolish Me
Little did you know that you were my last chance at love
My heart broken into un-mendable pieces And aching in undiscribable words Loving you is what kept me living
Foolish Me
Little did you know that you were my last chance at life
Living and dreaming that we would grow old together Laying in your warm precious grasp i guess it just doesn't last
i no longer have a reason to live You, my one and only true dream has been taken
Foolish Me
country_angel · Fri Apr 07, 2006 @ 12:13am · 0 Comments |
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