I have spent the last few days in bed with Luke. We didn't have sex. Just laying in bed with eachother. Sleeping and cuddling. I also did alot of thinking. Luke really gave me something to think about. We were talking about relations. I was thinking sexual relations and he may have been too but he brought up something of interest.
Apparently in his culture they don't have those kind of relations until after something called a joining. From what I can gather its like marriage but more spiritual or mystical. He said these joinings lasted where marriages fail. A joining of body and soul or something.
I feel I really have been pushing it with my openess. He doesn't show it but He may be hiding his true feelings about it. I mean I know he cares for me. and I feel its a deep caring but my ways of showing how I feel and how much I want to be with him are the wrong ways. I think I need to talk to someone about this. If only Owle was still around.
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