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Today I:
1) Returned from long hiatus.
2) Cleared my old item wishlist, I'd rather look around and check out what minigames and activities and/or avatar items are available and re-build it. This way I avoid 'wishing' for things related to a game that people no longer play (Aquarium? zOMG? That pet game?) and also avoid 'wishing' for avatar items that are going to be really really hard to get that I'm not sure I even want anymore.
3) Updated my signature, was clear I'm not new I'm old, I don't want to trick anyone even if newbie freebies would be nice since this account doesn't have a whole lot on it.
4) Updated my about me. Unfortunately it's blunt, but again, I don't want to trick anyone into thinking I'm new. I may not remember stuff, and this account doesn't have a whole lot of items and avatar stuff either, but I don't want to pretend and take advantage of anyone's kindness towards newbies even if I feel like an almost blank slate.

To-Do:
1) Look around and see if any of the minigames I remember are still viable or if there's something new I want to play or try. (Aquarium, zOMG, Pet minigame)
2) Look and see if the B/C Pet forums are still a thing. Decide if I want to dive back into that or not. I may want to try traditional rp or focus on a minigame forum instead?
3) Check out achievement forums, think on trying for account achievements.
4) Look around other forums to see if there is anywhere I want to chat.

How I'm feeling
I'm conflicted. It feels obvious to me this was not my original account, the registration date isn't quite right. My recovery attempts on the username I remember seem to be going to an email that I now find annoying to access (provider sold to another company, new company changes login methos and such, don't remember login, new company's recovery process is a pain).
And I am not sure that's a bad thing. This account is connected to the email I use now. It doesn't seem to have a lot of history or posts. What is/was there looks old or threads are inactive so really? Why not stay here, it's almost a clean slate. There's not a lot of avi items to choose from but I can build that up over time, and I don't mind the avi I have now. Do I really need to keep trying to recover the old account that may be linked to some stupidity or teen drama or angst I don't even remember? No, this almost-fresh slate seems fine I think.

But I can look back on some of this account's first posts, particularly in long-inactive B/C forum threads, I acted new. I lied. I'm not comfortable with that, but I also cannot change that I did it. I think the best I can do about it is to be honest now and going forward, which may be where some of my bluntness comes in in saying I'm not new. I also think, especially with those threads and such being long inactive, I should just move forward now. Now is now, and not the past.

I'm somewhat hopeful I will find something that catches my interest around, some forum to chat or game to play, but really I am going to have to look around and might not dive into any one thing too deeply at first. If I'm remembering rightly, part of why I stopped logging in was how trashy chatterbox had gotten (not just weird but near pornographic post topics and stuff that just didn't feel moderated that kept popping up every time I scrolls just trying to find a chat thread).... Toxicity, is it still here, or are there at least places it isn't? Places I can go chat and play a game?

And I am hopeful I will not be a source of toxicity myself.

I'll just have to look around and see.