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Like I said in your journal, I love you and I know I always will, your where, are, and always will be my first 3nodding
I'm really excited because I'm staying at his for more than a whole week, we're trying out living together to see how it goes ^^ So far its been amazing, I've been back to my parents house twice since I've been staying here just to pick some things up and it feels weird going back, he says it feels weird when I'm not here, and I feel the same :3 I'm also really excited about something else that we're doing but I'm not gonna say it here because of who might read this >< you'll find out soon enough though =P
heehee He knows what I'm talking about though ^_^
mwah XxXxXxXxXx Love you hun xXxXxXxXxXxX
La Mela Curse · Mon Feb 25, 2008 @ 02:58pm · 1 Comments |
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I guess I'll do little bits at a time though I don't wanna bore anyone.. TOO much =P
Ok first ^^ I have Officially left college for good now! Yay!! I'll be a bum for a while then some how get a job, oh what fun!
Second! I have a new hair style! :3 well SORTA new I've had something similar before though >>
I'd love it if you could tell me what you think :3
ok.. well yeah.. that was a HUMONGOUS update!!! @_@ so much has happened since I last "wrote" in here..
La Mela Curse · Sun Jan 13, 2008 @ 09:00pm · 1 Comments |
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If you actually wanna know ><
My mate Vicky's party was amazin!! poor thing threw up everywhere (and it wasn't coz she had too much too drink it's just that the whole day she hadn't been feeling to well and I think the 5/6.. maybe 8 shots that people gave her (since it was her birthday) just sort of helped her illness.. um.. release its self ^^ twas a good night though 3nodding
OMG soo much college work too do!! gonk Urgh!! Don't like it >< especially since I've hardly done any of it.. (I have major bad concentration k?) and it has to be handed in this coming Friday! crying and from what I've heard they have a few too many people on the course so by Christmas they want to try and drop around 20 of us!! and they said if you don't hand everything in then they'll kick you off the course.. OMG I'm gonna get kicked out of college!! No way!! This can't be happening to me!! O.o
*starts going crazy* rofl
La Mela Curse · Thu Nov 08, 2007 @ 08:34pm · 0 Comments |
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I promised to try and write in here like.. once a week!! BUT I FAILED!! crying
I am sorry..
Ok so here's a "slight" update on whats been going on since I last wrote in my journal sweatdrop
1. Broke up with my bf Adrian in August, he's a d**k, He pissed me off so I dumped him 3nodding always complaining about EVERYTHING, and apparently everyone hates him including the world stare even though he's got a massive wide screen TV and all that s**t it's just not good enough for him.. Nothing seems to go right for him he was always saying. He has now turned into a manic depressant.. Well I say TURNED into, what I really mean is he's a lot more of one than he was before.
2. I've gone back to college for a THIRD year! xp I'm so gonna die hehe still in the Art department doing a Pre Degree Foundation course.
3. Been to London and back ^^ with college, went to loads of different galleries and such, it's all good. Had many parties in the night =D I also got off with my friend (girl), and someone called *blank* (guy) =P
{don't wanna give away too many real names just in case xD}
4. Love my Sarah!! (she's just gone on a break with her bf) I really fancy this guy but he likes likes Sarah!!
5. Planning to go visit one of my bezzy mates who is now in Aberyswith uni in wales (>< don't think I've spelt that right!) It's her birthday and she can't make it back here so I'm going up there for two days two celebrate it with her ^^
6. REALLY BADLY NEED A JOB crying
La Mela Curse · Sun Oct 21, 2007 @ 04:34pm · 0 Comments |
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Dedicated to My Auntie May who died last wednesday |
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I went to her funeral on the friday. It was really sad, and I've never been to a funeral before. I didn't know what to do, it was kinda scary, and seeing the coffin just made it all sink in and I ended up crying!! I hardly ever cry in public but I just couldn't stop myself. cry All the amazing things her best friend said about her half of them I never knew! She was an amazing woman she made her daughters wedding dress by hand and all the bridesmaids! And they where all beautiful... I'm gonna miss her, I didn't speak to her that often because she lived quite a way away from us and so I didn't know her as well as I would have liked to, this is something I regret now. Atleast now I know she's not struggling anymore. She's been through many battles of illness and won, but I guess this time it was too much for her heart. It's just it was so sudden..
Love you Auntie May!!!! heart
La Mela Curse · Sat May 26, 2007 @ 02:50pm · 1 Comments |
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She loves the flowers, The flowers love her, She loves the birds, The trees, the grass, And they love her, And yet, She still feels alone, No one really cares.
She tries to create happiness and joy, but every time she creates beautiful life, they wipe it away, and expect her to just forget, they expect her to keep on rebuilding her creations after they've torn them down without a care, over and over again they destroy, without a thought of how she might feel. Heartless she calls them.
Behind the mask lies the true face of nature...
Sorrow has overtaken her love now and so things begin to crumble, for what was once a beautiful world full of life, is now full of death and suffering, they destroy, She rebuilds, over and over, so many thoughtless acts against her. She grows weak, replenishing life starts to become almost impossible because of them, and her anger starts to overtake her sorrow. She starts to hate them more and more, her anger grows and grows, and for ever more it grows.
Nature herself becomes… Ugly
For what she loves, she hides her face from the world.
Think of Mother Nature <The World>
Meh just something I once came up with for the avi competition
La Mela Curse · Tue Apr 10, 2007 @ 09:57pm · 0 Comments |
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The Dead Bufflo and Evil Creatures *weeps* |
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Brace yourself..
~The sickening stench of the rotting bufflo corpse, drifting through the air, reaching the nostrils of evil creatures that reside in death itself, where mother nature has taken her last breath, and the decaying flesh of the dead tree, is nothing, but a resting place for those nasty little insects, their bellies swollen with freshly consumed meat. The rotten corpse not far from the houses of those visious vampires, lies still in its own pool of blood that is swimming with an army of maggots, rags of fleshed are being torn at by hungry hyenas, and the surrounding air is consumed by small flying ogres, desperate to get their feed. High above circling vultures pierce the sky with their sharp voices to announce to their friends that dinner is served, diving down into the masacre of evil, they land on the stinking corpse, pecking at the eyes, and dunking their heads into the bounty of blood and worms, whilst only a few meters away the bufflo herd despair as they watch their dead brother disintigrate infront of them...
Ok Yeah I know it's weird but.. you actually read it? I should give you a medal for wasting your time sorry! But ya just gonna have to live with it =P haha I also wrote this one AGES ago but yah... there it is... stuff in my mind (has deeper meaning though.. HONEST!!)
La Mela Curse · Tue Apr 10, 2007 @ 07:17pm · 0 Comments |
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Ok just a small (shitty) peice I did.. |
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is from a while ago so please don't cringe from how bad it is (theres worse to come so save your cringing for the next entry =D)
~The moon is shining on the chrystal surfaced lake, nothing moves, mountains cast heavy shadows onto a desert space of sharp stones and hot sand, nothing speaks, there is a forboding silence of which there is no movement, nothing alive, like time itself has halted, to allow a brief period of emptyness were everything becomes nothing, were no creature lives, and no creature dies, heaven on earth? Or Hell... Who is to say?... but then the devil intrudes. A rude awakening, the clock ticks, the shadows move, and the world is alive once more, but none can see the hell in which we live.
La Mela Curse · Tue Apr 10, 2007 @ 07:12pm · 0 Comments |
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UPDATE (been a while >.< sorry!) |
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ok First of all incase I haven't mentioned I have a shmexy boyfriend called Adrian =D he's half spanish! yay ^_-^ I love him soo soo much you couldn't even begin to imagine =3
ALSO I am currently catching up on the latest bleach XD only up to episode 82 and I'm also trying to watch Fruits Basket coz I've never managed to watch it fully before =D
My life so far is.. poor but compared to many I guess i'm pretty lucky! So don't you DARE.. EVER call me emo coz I love my life and my family and my friends (most of the time =3) and I wouldn't ever think of killing or harming myself on purpose!! .. unless it was to save someone I loved of course ^-^
I'm not really a bad person.. people say I'm evil though =( say I'm the spawn of the devil and s**t but thats not true!! I'm just human ^-^ guess am a bit of both though=D I have my angelic moods (which is when I want to give money out and share my good mood and help people out and stuff) my devil moods (which is where I imagine ripping guts out and inflicting extreem pain onto people I hate and watching there faces laughing.. as ya do.) and my period mood.. XD (which means if you annoy me in any way or piss me off just a little bit.. you will regret it most dearly.. though I'm not like that all periods =D luckily for Adrian) *cough* ok so this is the part where I say thanks for reading my s**t =D and if you are actually reading this then.. your weird but here's a pat on the back for getting through it all.
Comments are welcomed ALOT =D (T-T I never get any comments... guess no one likes me..)
Ok so ANYWAYS hope you all had a happy easter and... JOIN WorldOfWarcraft! or you will perish... messin (I'm not obsessed.. ninja honest)
that was a little more about me I guess.. so if ya wanna get to know me then you'll have to keep checking up here!! =3 thankya!!! (not that anyone actually will or anything.. crying
xNuka~
La Mela Curse · Tue Apr 10, 2007 @ 06:57pm · 0 Comments |
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