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It hurt so bad each and every day,
Lonely without purpose wandering alone.
In the dark I searched effortlessly,
Hoping that maybe theres hope.
Flipping on my computer one last time,
I found you alone and hurtin.
Something hit me I couldnt let go,
My heart beated with the beat of your heart.
Connected I was tied to your heart,
I tried to resist efforts in vain.
I didnt want to hurt anymore,
I didnt want another person to hurt me again.
Still I resisted and still I fought,
But my heart was different as of that moment.
I felt you and I knew you where my purpose,
So I stayed by your side through the night.
Time passed by and this feeling grew,
A feeling that I thought was long dead.
Revived it was and still growing.
But how to tell you I did not know.
Yet somehow fate showed me a way,
But then it slapped me in the face.
It came with that guy,
Who ripped you away.
He brought destruction in his path,
And left you in pieces.
Many tears fell from both sides,
How could they stop still falling from my cheek.
I could do nothing... powerless to stop this nightmare.
I could feel your pain through each passing minute.
I would have done anything,
But I could do nothing a failure I am.
When he left he took you with him,
But I wouldnt let go of your hand.
Somehow I would pull you back into my arms.
Some way....
A sickness brought from him formed inside.
I can not sleep without you with me.
I can not eat without you near.
I can not live without you.
Piece by piece you came back,
Still jagged pieces remain.
I feel the blood drip from my hands,
And fall upon the floor.
It becomes a blur as I hit the floor.
Puddles form from the newly opened wounds,
And then you blur and I strive to keep you alive.
Your body shakes and trembles rushed to the hospital.
I did all I could do and then I did the most desperate thing,
I prayed....
I prayed that you would not leave me now.
I pleed for your life.
I was blessed as I found you were alive.
My heart beated once again with yours,
Taken not you were from me.
I had you again.
Now you are with me and I smile,
And I know you smile once again.
You are my one and only,
And I am yours.
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Goodbye my Love
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The day's seems like years without you around,
I really miss the way you talked the way you sound,
my heart is a big empty hole without you here,
and my heartache is getting more severe.
Another days bring's more tears to my eyes,
I tried to convince you to stay and cover up all the lies,
your miles away somewhere far and distant,
it's like you never were existent.
A twist of fate brought you here,
you seem so far even when your near,
The road is a long distance away,
And still so much more I never got to say.
I'm missing you and your always on my mind,
I tried to think back and capture all the moments you have left behind,
why did you have to say goodbye and then turn your back on me,
without you here I'm chained up waiting for you to set my heart free.
didn't you know?
didn't you even see?
I thought you felt much more between you and me,
yet you pushed me away,
making me wait alone for another day,
I was marking down the days till I see your face,
but its hard to imagine it if your far away in a diffrent place,
I always have my hopes held high,
just to watch them slowly die,
what happened to all the things you said,
the dream we talked about was it all a lie?
I thought it was hard enough being miles apart,
but you shut me off left out in the dark,
I've always believed that you meant what you said,
but as I was falling behind you were always a step of me ahead.
you don't even write me anymore,
once in a while you give a call,
I try to email you but my messages never seem to come through,
I miss you,
that was the only thing that was true.
I'm missing you and no matter how much I try to forget it all
I keep reliving my past.
it still continues to replay in my head all so fast,
even though I try not to let it show,
I loved you and I just couldn't let that go.
I have a soul beneath the surface.
And trying to convince you,
it was accidentally was truthfully on purpose.
you can tell from the state of my room,
that the glass and empty containers on the floor,
led to something new.
For those pills that i ate,
came a couple years too late.
It started with red in my eyes ,
and now a bathtub full of flies .
For i'm not alright now.
Now you're sorry you didnt ask
That you didnt do everything you could.
Unlike what any decent person would
Now regret fills your heart,
As inch by inch im lowered into the ground.
Drop one last rose before you turn away.
Shed a few more tears before life goes on.
For now is the end of you and me.
But think it could have been different if only things changed.
Months go by and years slowly approach,
You come back to my grave.
What did the future have in store for us?
Well we will never know now.
Goodbye my love……
-Matt-
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