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It has been 13 years since my last entry. Alot has happened a lot has changed. My boyfriend is now my common law husband we live together with our 3 cats who are turning 10, 11 and 12. Its been a long complicated time but things are as good as I can hope. I've had my first real job then lost it thanks to this lovely f*cking covid. Who knew I'd seen a pandemic this bad in my lifetime. What else, my nana had breast cancer and had both of her breasts removed, but I moved out of my own with my husband for the first time when I was 21 I'm at my best friend Kim still friends to this day. Let's see, I made another new friend a couple years back Hazel, she did live with us for a couple years but now lives with my friend Kim. What is got a nice home just have to finish unpacking and cleaning packing my old roommates stuff getting that out of here and then hopefully turn this place into a home we can have children. New Balance around a few times after I moved out of my mom's place and he moved out of his caregiving home we moved into our first place downtown and we lived it to other places before this one after that one. What in the mission and then the west side and now up here in Rutland. We're hoping this is the last move. I'm hoping to keep this journal up we'll see how it goes considering only Andrew seem to be while her first few years apart and then suddenly 13 years later so we'll take it as it comes. Hopefully talk to you soon

Well, it has been 2 years since my last post in this journal. What has happened since then well I graduated from the privet school but am still working on correspondance. I am with my bf for 2 and a half years now and still going strong. I got a job as a research developer, it is pretty cool. I get to sit infront of a comp all day and surf and in my spare time I get to do whatever I want. My bff is living with me right now cause she was thrown out of her old place because they were nasty %$@(*&$%#&^ mind my language. Anyway we are working on getting a restraining order which is totally stressful, I will be glad when it is all over. Anyway that is about it. WOW That was less then I thought it would be, I really need to do more with my life. I seriously thought I was buisy these last two years. Hmmmm. Oh well, Byes

It's my first day at this new school. I have never been to privet school before and it is kind of weird trying to walk around grade 1's and 2's again. My homeroom teacher is ok and there are only about 7 grade 12's in the whole school. I have a full scedual after this. We take 6 classes a day here. 8:30am till 4pm, harsh huh. The school is located in an old elementary school so everything is tiny. Anyway I should go. Byes

Now that i met you, Im just scared once you meet me or before even that im going to loose you. Like i loose everyone and everything i have ever loved. I dont think i could handle looking you now that i have found you. For once in my life i feel like its ok that im alive and that i have a reason to live. I feel like I can do anything and nothing can stop me or hurt me in anyway. I have never felt safe in my intire life.....but then you came along....I love you

I hate this. I just got a letter from my nana telling me she will not suport my decision and I dont know what I am doing and s**t like that. God kill me, I never thought I would live to see the day my nana would not support me. I cant stop crying, this is killing me so much inside. If I wait until next monday I might be able to have money for a ticket. I need to get out of here now more then ever. Am I a bad person for doing this? For trying to make my life actually happy and not feel as bad about myself as I do every single day of my life? For trying to make it so I dont want death every day of my life? Does that make me a bad, selfish person?