It has been forever and a day. And that's not joking. Since that last pic I have got my head shaved and a lot of other things have happened. But basically I really haven't felt to good for the past couple weeks and it has been very on and off. I wont eat for days and then work out really hard one day and then go to some restaurant and eat a large meal and then start cycle again. I feel so odd, I realy need consistency...but for some reason nothing seems like it is.
Didn't sleep last night, Ally texted me 'cuz she was scared of a storm at 3 45 AM. So I called her and talked to her for a little bit before another guy called her. So ya...a nice 15 minutes of conversation before I am only reminded that what I do means abso-fuggin-lutly nothing and I remember how quick replacements are found. Don't know what I'm talking about...that's probably 'cuz I'm a selfish idiot and chose to put this in here 'cuz I needed to vent it somewhere. No one else will hear it without blasting me for still liking her. She said everything would be fine, but she also said she'd call me everyday and that we'd be fine and that she'd miss me. None of which actually happened...but...whatever. Hope streams eternal...my stream is just getting very dammed up....
Ronin_Of_Fire · Thu Jun 29, 2006 @ 08:50pm · 0 Comments |