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I've lost him.
The only one who ever really made me feel like I was worth something in this world and I lost him to his stuck-up girlfriend. I never thought he was the type to ditch his best friend for a girl. But here we are, stuck in this situation.
I miss him. We haven't hung out in months. And day by day I can feel the world around me slowly slipping from my grasp because he isn't around to give me that reassurance that I need anymore.
And now that it's summer I have this sick-to-the-stomach feeling that it's only going to get worse. I asked for advice. They told me I should talk to him and tell him how i feel. And although that seems like the right answer I don't know If I can bare anymore heart to heart's with him, because the last one we had practially broke my heart.
The only boy I ever felt I could talk to and be myself around...
And here I am sitting around watching us lose everything we ever had. And I guess the only reason I'm letting it happen is because he hasn't made any attempt to save us either.