I have some problems and I think it would be better to tell people about them. Or at least that is what some friends of mine think. I have issues with my emotions. Like everythings cool in the beginning. Nothing really bothering me, nothing really effects me. I barely show any emotion in my life. My parents and some of my friends think I am on drugs. My dad even wants to send me to a psychiatrist, what the ******** does he know about me? HE YELLS AT ME. HE TREATS ME AND MY FAMILY LIKE s**t. HE BLAMES ALL OF US FOR HIS ******** PROBLEMS. I DON'T CARE ABOUT HIM.
When I get angry though, I can't really hide what I feel. My head starts hurting. It starts hurting a lot. I sometimes don't know what to do. It hurts so bad, I just lose it. Some of my best friends used me to fight. I hurt a lot of people I knew. I hurt my dad once... my own family. I don't know what to do anymore. I just want things to stop. When its all done, I like get put back in reality. I don't mean to fight. I don't mean to hurt people. I don't mean to change.
I figured out when I am like this. Everyone changes from what they say they are. I just want to stop the head aches. I want to stop them so much. I want to stop them from making me into something else...
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Just figured it would be easier to write my feelings, ideals, beliefs, and how I truly think of myself and other relationships in this world down. Read if you really want to.
Honor, love, and courage.
The three aspects of any battle.
To excel in one is a weakness.
To excel in all three is perfection.
The three aspects of any battle.
To excel in one is a weakness.
To excel in all three is perfection.